life is ever so fragile...
i'm willing to bet with my life
because i will always know the outsome of the bet
it's either I win or I lose.

Have you ever wonder how fragile life is? Has it been always a part of your illusion that life is strong?

Over the weeks, stories had been heard about the foreman who take a bet of life and risk the danger of death to save his worker during the cave-in of Nicoll Highway. Knowing that the whole place is dangerous, why did the foreman risk his life to save a another person's life? And what's more to a foreign worker? Hasn't it always been on our mind that Singaporeans are more superior? Singaporean's life is definately worth more than a foreign worker's life? Why did he use an "expensive" life to bet on such a "cheap" life?

Knowing that he still have got a family to feed, a household to upkeep. This bet is one-sided. However, chances are slim, probability is small. He went ahead to take the risk. At the end of the day, he lost his life and body can't be found. But he earned back a reputation, a legacy.

My conclusion is that. No matter what door you reach, take the risk and open the door. It could be a monster on the other side or could be a pot of gold. But you won't know the outcome unless you open it.

check out my interview

quoted from "www.zaobao.com"
but the interview is from me lah... (note: credit goes to SL for helping me to translate~!)

淡马锡理工学院毕业生黄健明（20岁）认为，校长打学生固然不对，但是有关学生的同学也不应该报警。他说：“我觉得现代的学生的身心真的很‘虚弱’，受不了一点打击，所以就动不动去把事情闹大。”

for english version... haha checkout posting on... "students nowadays are so niuahhh(WEAK!)"

dark side in life

When back to school today to help out with the school's student's symposium... Hmmm, guess it's pretty boring to help the lecturers set up the panels and stuff...

Managed to extort a TEH-C bing from my lecturer, MT. And he also shared with us about the dark side of life... NS, good students.

For NS, don't do you best when it comes to training. So that at the end of the day, you can "progressively improve" to your best. This create a sense of impression that you are able to perform and improve in BMT which at the end of the day gives your Sgts and Sirs a false sense of "you strive to improve"

Haha, MT also shared the dark side of officers in NS at this time... Hmmm, so what if you become an officer? What are the lessons or skills that you can apply back when you turned civilian? Becoming a clerk is more practical. You get to learn spreadsheet, excel, database, etc, computer skills, etc, when you are back to civillian... As an officer what can you learn? Shoot rifle? Chiong mountain? Haha

For good students, GOD~!!! I didn't know it's so dark inside the staff room... During year 1, the students are already picked to be in the top band and the CM will be at a look out for the students who are in the top band... If the students doesn't perform, the lecturers head will on the chopping board... At the same time, the good students are given lotsa opportunities in school. Also, no matter how terrible the results that the good students performed, the students will always be the pet of the CMs......

How fair could life be...

i still can't get into enlightenment

With regards to previous post, i still can't get myself out of the ring of discussion even tho i'm VERY VERY VERY FARKING TIRED to talk about it... I felt misunderstood. I felt that people are drawing conclusions based on certains issues observed. I can't deny that I'm also guilty of assuming stuff, but I have always tell myself to my best of my capacity, not to judge a book by it's cover and assuming things. However, if i ever get out of the circle of judging and assuming, I know I'll really attain my personal enlightenment.

Just a few things I would like to point out from the last discussion on my blog, it's personal, heck, but i'll definately not going back into the discussion loop to everyone. If you see it, good. If you don't, this will stay for a week before it's gone. (HECK, THIS IS MY BLOG. I'M THE EXPRESSOR HERE. YOU ARE THE GUEST. YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO EXPLORE MY FEELINGS FOR YOUR PERSONAL VIEW...) It's none of the GREAT business now, but I think I would want to give myself a chance of explanation to myself. (IT'S ALL ABOUT ME. I'M SELFISH... YOU HAVE YOUR RIGHTS TO EXPLORE YOUR FEELINGS. GET A BLOG AND TELL ME ABOUT IT.)

(I'm going to censor off a few words)

...to wholly plan and execute projects on their own... ...provide us with many opportunities... ...cannot take for granted that we can take things lightly and make mistakes like nobody's business... ...be practical... ..cannot afford to only just exist and allow ... to make mistakes and fail anyhow... ...No business in the world can afford that...
(i appreciate the good cause... my point is that the methodology has changed to become more practical, it's now practical VS idealism. what's the different between a sch and this? must as well put everything into a curriculum and start teaching in school? what happen to a place to where ****h are allowed to explore and decide their learning curve? maybe I was wrong in the 1st place, maybe i'm be one who had a fasle impression in the beginning. It's now all business world. Everything comes down to dollars and cents. Where on earth is the farking idealogy?)

...no longer feel a sense of belonging... ...take it from another perspective... ...transition and growth past few months was tremendous... ...perhaps you guys have not been keeping pace with its growth?... ...difficult to keep up unless you are constantly on the job... ...I already felt difficult to keep up with the changes, and sometimes I do ask myself WHY am I doing all these... ...I've lost pace and it's time I re-orientate myself. Take up a more pro-active role, and find out for yourself what you have missed out for the last few months... For all I know, you guys have been busy with your own work and were unavailable to be engage in most of... ...activities.
(being missing in the scene = not knowing what's going on? this is very you Vs me? you put yourself in your shoes and
i'm am in my own smelly shoes... NO matter how smelly your shoes are, it's still different from my farking smelly shoes... )

... not that big of a problem, we do not wish to blow up the matter... ...foster an environment that encourages feedback and views and opinions to be shared... ...who do not "talk" does not mean that they are working submissively... ...were not there when they were "talking"?...
(feedback are brought up by us regarding us... we didn't want to bring out because we still strongly believe it was what it was supposed to be... as for the other voices, it's a collective feedback collected by us...)

...new groups ... ... are joining ... ...every now and then. ..."senior", ...doesn't give you the privilege to NOT take the initiative to get to know the rest of the "junior" ... ...Instead of sitting there, where you look cold and distant, come on! Put on a smile! Get to know them... ... it is more difficult for a new kid on the block to get to know his neighbours than an old kid to take the initiative to get to know him and show him around.
(damn it... assumption for fact? hmmm, if you realise we have never a chance to interact with any of them. and since when have we ever hide the a dark and chilly corner in a group of our own. if we were cold and distant, we would have left the noobs high and dry...)

...it's not like what you guys described as "cold". I love the smiles, the joyful faces that greet me. All in all, I feel it's been quite long since ...
(wrong point, it becoz you are **d and the rest are **w. the difference is you have access to everything but not the rest...)


I HOPE IT'S GOING TO BE OVER... WHATEVER IS POSTED HERE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HERE AND NOT USED FOR OTHER INTENDED DISCUSSION...

AS I SAID, FRIEND IS FRIEND, COLLEAGUE IS COLLEAGUE. THE LINE DOESN'T CROSS.

LIke i tell my classmate today in school, I can work with you but that doesn't mean I have to be friend with you... SAME THING APPLIES...
I CAN BE FRIEND WITH YOU BUT DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE TO WORK WITH YOU...

gathering of depressioners together

somehow or rather seems that most of my friends are going thru depression of some sort? SL, EL, TC and myself. Hmmm, the girls can blame it on their PMS, what can the guys blame it on? TESTOSTERONE IMBALANCE???

WHAT THE FUCK? WHy does all these things come in all of a sudden and a few friends together?

Maybe I seriously need a long long long break before I start afresh... Perhaps hibernating like a bear would be the best solution...

attain enlightenment

After all the bouncing back and forth on a few points that both parties insist on their own point, it gets pretty tiring to continue. At the end of the day, the suggestion was brought to the management where the rest of the issues are none of my concerns.

My current stand is that do what I think is right, I shall keep my motive as pure as I could and do things to the best of my abilities...

it's the season of depression

farking shit, i think i'm going thru some sort of depression AGAIN~!!! hmmm, things are running pretty smoothly for me except some "i-don't-get-your-idea-neither-do-you-get-mine" shit.

maybe that's what you called the "end of school" depression or maybe the "pre-NS" depression. things are going alright with me, as in I've got a bunch of going-out friends, I've got a set of parents that are starting to understand me and letting me do what I deem right. BUt at the end of the day, something seemed really wrong. I seriously can't point out what is wrong with me.

It's just a sort of feeling that... ARGH~!!! I'm feeling so wasted... NO school, NO exams, NOTHING to do... At least I can more or less confirm that I'm not going thru "pre-NS" depression.

tmr, my lecturer asked me to go back to help her out. On one hand, I'm like WTF, why ask me. It's project exhibition, my project is not selected for exhibition, and you want me to be back to help you? How do you think I will feel? I'm a project reject and you are getting me to help you? but on the other hand, i don't mind helping out if school activities, damn it... if I can spend so much time on an organisation, i should have spend more time with my school's activities and at least I can PR my lecturers and so on so forth.

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Damn it... I'm too matured for the role...

my daddy

When out with my dad today to some tour agency, he's planning some tour for some friends. I hop along to get some information for SL on Redang. Hmmm, my dad was like telling me about how his dad brought him to chinatown and had the ever delicious chicken rice.

He also shared with he when he was young how he cycled from bridge road to chinatown with his uncle's bike. And the movies they had during 1st day of Lunar New Year. It's really nice to hear him sharing with me his younger days. I don't really hear much from him.

Recently my dad has became more open up and shared with him during his youthful days. I felt really excited to really hear from my daddy.

students nowadays are so niuahhh(WEAK!)

Followed the news closely today, there was this news on this principal hitting a delinquent girl in school. I'm like, nowadays, the students are so niuah... Get hit call police. WEAK. A bunch of idiots. I could still remember that when I was primary school, my chinese teacher like to hit her students with this yellow wooden ruler. I could still remember been hit by her. Maybe I should have called the police and sued my teacher for assult then? Hmmm, damn lah...

The students now are getting from bad to terrible. Teachers can't punish their students, or else the parents will call for media, call the MOE. FUCK lah, parents nowadays really dote their kids a lot. Teachers cannot do this cannot do that. Bunch of idiots! Hmmm, well, it comes back to the point, spare the rod and spoil the child. Don't you realise that you are spoiling your child when you dote them too much. Brainless bunch of parents.

I could still remember my parents punish me when I was younger. My dad would bring out the cane and does not spare a single thought to send the cane on my leg. It was very painful, but as times goes by, I learnt my lesson and became a better person I would say.

Sreiously I think ah, the girl is problem child. There must be a high probability that the girl must have tired to find fault in the principal and called the police...

Than again, didn't you mom ever teach you not to judge the book by it's coveR? Hmmm, the girl may be problematic, but does it mean that she will do such a thing? If you answer is yes, you are still not looking beyond the coveR.

Well, that's life... What do you want from it?

blogging more than usual

I realised today it's the 5th update on my blogspot. I don't really know if this is a healthy sign or not? Seriously, i'm really bored to death everyday. Leaving day to day hoping to try out something different. I've tried my hands on baking egg-tarts, cooking meals for family, going for a trip, swimming, cycling, mahjong over the last few days of holiday...

But seriously I think i'm still feeling very empty. Especially so for that I'm out of school (graduating not kicked out). I mean everyday I can look forward to something exciting in school, study for test and exams. Reading up on projects, etc, etc.

Now, it's a really terrible change... Well, I mean it's like I can't get a job now because enlistment date is so near. I can't go out everyday to play because I don't really have enough to spend like that's no tomorrow. I can't take up any courses because enlistment is so near too.

all in a day's work

my ass is farking painful now, HEY, it's NOT what you percieved as it is... I went biking yesterday and today. Well, being a NOVICE, i tired taking the safer pedestrain path, so i have to go up and down the humps... Which I didn't know how to tackle the humps, ended up my butt hitting on the seat. Now it's all painful... OUCH~!!!

Well, i kinda like pink dolphin the drink a lot. but realised that carbohydrate is 31g. I'm like drinks also got carbo... Hmmm, should cut down of that already. Well, I'm now on a exercising routine, go swimming, jogging, cycling. Hopefully can cut down some weight and do some training up before entering NS

Hmmm, Mark got into his idea choice of studies. Congratulations~!!! That's a really blessing~!!! All the best..

charcoal VS diamond

(BARRY I know you are reading this, finish reading the whole thing before you start to strangle me)

LIfe has never always been fair. I mean it's like some of the people (sch*l*rs) are treated as diamonds, shiny, expensive BUT useless. And most of the time, the rest of the people are like charcoal.

Charcoal and Diamonds are both composites of carbon with different structure.
A same element with 2 different fate. Charcoal - burnt and dump away, Diamonds - treasured like treasure.

Why did I say that? Hmmm, well.

Charcoal: Burns strongly - gives off lights and heat to benefit others, but at the end of the day, reduces to a pile of ashes.

It's pretty much like normal you and me. One may not be academically strong but you could fulfil tasks given to you to the best of your abilities producing outstanding results but what you deserve towards the end are just a thank U, or maybe even a dinner. SOMETIMES YOU GET NONE. OR even worst, you get treated like a pile of ash. Sad case isn't it?

Diamonds: Pretty, shiny stuff, very expensive.

It's just like sch*l*rs. The shine during their studies, pretty impressive. Organisation pays good money to provide them with more education and a good job. Expensive isn't it? Hmmm. At the end of the day, what the results produced? Useless bunch of idi*t. What makes them stands out from you and me? Academic? Shallow isn't it.

Results are never or at least should never be a measurement of a person. But many a time, organisations uses results as a form of measurement of the person. And alas, capable people who can't study are left aside to die.

Thank god most (not all) of my friends who are scholars belongs to another catergory which i called graphite. Still made of carbon. But graphite are more useful, strong and can be used to make into building structures to benefit people.

are you open enough to accept thing?

As I was searching for a blogskin for a friends, I kinda come across this picture which I thought was subjective. Recalling that the government is encouraging the society to be more libreral with lifting of bans/ pubishments against oral sex and Remaking Singapore. And also the PM to give more acceptance to homosexuality.

This picture I would say should be a relatively good measurement of how libreral are my friends...



One thing for sure is that, I definately know that R and JT will definately not like the picture. I'm not really sure about the rest, maybe you guys might want to drop a msg on my tag-board.

For myself, I thought it was pretty average with this thing going on. Well, as the society progress to be more liberal, at the same time, don't push for it. Let it come...

i'm a domestic person now

God, I can't believe this. Again couldn't wake up at 530, ended up waking up at 8.30. Well, had breakfast with my parents at the coffee shop downstairs, and discuss with my mom what's the menu for the day. GOD~!!! I'm so my mom. Well, that's not all, went to shop for ingredients for today's meals. GOODNESS... I was like looking at the vegetables and what not. Decided that today should have luncheon meat and porride for lunch and wanton soup for dinner. ARGH~!!! BOUGHT the luncheon meat and wanton skins and minced pork. And went home start to make the wanton.

Might be going to clean the house later...

WHY HAVE I TURNED SO DOMESTICATED? Hmmm, guess I'm JUST A NEW AGE GUY~!!! HAHA...

damn tired

today, wanted to wake up at 530 to go cycling ard my neighbourhood, but well, as usually, i slept till around 9 plus. I could have slept further but well, must have discipline to wake up. especially so now for NS, must get my biological clock to tune to waking up early.

after lunch, i rolled out my new bike and left home for Des's place for mahjong. Hmmm, initially mom didn't like me to cycle on the street, but well, i managed to get my way around and finally she gave way... YEAH... was on a winning streak for mahjong, but hai~! they didn't tell me last night they are not playing for money... WASTE MY TIME...

anyway, now damn tired after cycling from marine parade to bedok reservoir and back...

will further update soon

back from muar trip

nothing interesting... my mood is totally spoilt by some farking incident with some screwed or should i say screwing up place.

see the pictures... everything is so boring... bus load of senior citizens, boring places of interest, boring shopping area. oh god!!! and my farking horoscope is so damn farking accurate... not that i'm a farking believer but it's so damn farking accurate.

04/25/2004

G R E E T I N G S Aries

You may be carrying a load of excess baggage. You can drop whatever isn't necessary as soon as you stop repressing certain feelings. Face the unresolved issues that are holding you back. You won't be able to fix it all in one day, but even making a start will help you travel lighter and move faster. Some might require a trained professional to help them through an exercise like this, but you feel strong enough to try it on your own. And if you run into any problems that you
can't handle by yourself, you know who to call.






p.s. i'm having a farking bad mood swing plus farking bad incident when i'm writing this.

expected an unexpected reply

Why am I so bother about a reply? It's a reply that is sort of expected. I mean I have said what is needed to be said. However, things does not really seem to be moving the way it should have been. Or it is because things are moving away from what it should have been. Irony isn't it?

Nothing is left to be said further until action of some sort is proven. However, that might be a point in time that could be too late to handle. Work is pure and simple at first. Things have changed to be more complex and can't really be solved by complicating further. However, I strongly believe that complexity is made up of many many simple things entangled together. The best way to solve it is to go back to basic and work slowly on each simple thing instead of lumping everything together and not getting more simple things to help in the process and hope that god will help you handle it.

God is a spiritual thing as many have said, it is supposed to bless you with the power to accomplish task. Give you the power to achieve things you set to target. But ultimately it is YOU who accomplish the goal with your own power NOT GOD. The word spiritual already implies that it's a strong illusion that make you believe you can do it but still physical and mentally you have to handle yourself. If you think you are god and can change things because you know many other deities. FUCKING HELL. You only live in your own utopia. Get down on earth and see the suffering of human being.

Building a universe? MY foot. You can't even handle the terrestrial and you want to create the celestial. EaRthling like me can only see the earth I'm living. YET you blame me for seeing only the soil when you hid the clouds

Blame the EaRthling for not seeking celestial truth, hey look, who's not trying to find out EaRthling facts. Reflect upon the lotus pond before speaking.

If your beloved subjects tells you the happening of your session in a subtle manner, get the hint you farking idiot and elucidate on the error and make amendments to your fault.

friends are hard to get...

HonTiong, Sok Keng, Caren and Siew Chin just came over to my place for dinner. A belated birthday celebration to be exact. Thinking back, I have known them for a really long period of time. We are from the same secondary school, but became only same class from sec 3 onwards, where all of us are in 4E1.

I being the oldest in the group is always really made the decision. BUt i would say, the real credit of the group of really good friends staying together should go to Sok Keng. She's the one that put in the most effort to keep the group together. Perhaps you could have asked, why bother to stick to a group of friends? At the end of the days, you grow up and priorities will change, your scope of friends will change.

My answer is that friends come and friends go. However, these few friends are here to stay. They have been with me thru my teenage years and will be here to stay for many many years. They have been with me to when I'm making major decisions in life or at least I think the decision is major. Ever since I knew them, I have always spend my birthday with them.

But seriously, the percentages of time we meet up is very little. We meet up like birthdays, grand occassions and a few other random timing. However, we knew each other so well, that even we meet up very little and contact each other very seldom, we still know what each other is doing and going thru.

It's really a rare thing and very blessed to have a group of friends like this...

news updates and reflection...

Saturday April 24, 2:17 PM
Two workers seriously burnt at Chevron Oronite plant on Jurong Island

SINGAPORE: Two workers were seriously injured at the Chevron Oronite plant on Jurong Island on Saturday night.
A company statement says the men, Lee Boon Loong and Tan Choon Hock, were rushed to the Singapore General Hospital Burns Unit and were in critical condition.

The men were clearing an incinerator unit of ash chute when they encountered hot liquid from the incinerator and sustained serious burns.

The company says it is not normal for hot liquid to be present in the incinerator.

It adds that all operations at that portion of the plant have been suspended and a full inquiry will be conducted into the incident.

Chevron Oronite is a developer and marketer of additives for fuels and lubricants. - CNA

Being in the chemical industry is supposed to be the safest industry around as compared to construction and other industries. Well, looking at thee articles, i'm kinda surprise that such a think actually happened to Chevron, I mean Chevron is one the few major chemical plant that is considered safe. And clearing of incinerator should be a relatively safe job, i mean with all the regulation and rules set in place, LOTO, paper documentation and so on so forth, it's really terrible that such a thing happened.

In comparison to the oven explosion in SIA Kitchen, I'm not sure about how is the procedures like in maintance of equipment, but I'm pretty sure that the 2 technicians have to play a part in that?

Or perhaps everything is just fated to happen?

And also how to freakin' cave-in happen to Nicoll highway? The government announce the cave-in as national disasters, but as quoted from Kumar yesterday... "Singapore is so small, any thing happen is consider a national disaster, but I think MISS SINGAPORE UNIVERSE should be considered a national disaster." Haha...

Nicoll highway, in my opinion, had a cave in-in, I think it's because of poor material used for building of support wall for the digging of tunnel. If you think logically, construction is a very expensive project, to cut cost here and there, the only way is to save on material fees. Since the workers are really lowly paid. NO matter that, I hope the government goes deep into details regarding the cave-in. And meanwhile I shall ask around my contacts and network to see if I have got insider news...

Disclaimer: The above opinion is personal and should not be used for publicity of any sort.

getting a bit high and hang over... con't

today, woke up early in the morning after sleeping late last night. felt really tired, and took a nap after going out with breakfast with my mom and sister. SL called in the middle of my nap saying that she will be late. So I took a longer nap.

Haha, to my amazement, ML, SL and I were all late but we appeared all at the same time. Coincident? hmmm, when we were at the bus, we did letter to be sent to RH, sent out the letters and hang out at the office for a while and had dinner at this place with 3 storeys of food court. Had subway...

Met RW after dinner and chill out at HAN's. When Eu left HAN's with his gf, the 3 of us, SL, RW and I set of to boom boom room to realise that they are having a private function. Hmmm, so we went to the street where there are many pubs and dining place to chill out further. Had a Rum Sprite at choice appetite, the Rum Sprite is damn bloody cheap. $4 only. I mean for alcoholic drinks at $4 is amazing...

Well continue again tml, coz now really high and tired.. Chill~!!!

getting a bit high and hang over... con'd

As I was saying, hmmm, after chilling out at choice appetite, we left for Boom Boom Room at 10. Wow boy, there were already queue forming. Anyway, we got into the club rather quickly and got settled down in around 10 to 20 mins time. people starts pouring in almost after we got settled in. I order tequila orange, SL ordered volka ribena, and RW order volka lime. Hee... Nice combination tho... The colour scheme is great... Took some pictures...





Chatted for a while and the drag queens came on!!! Woooo... But the drag queens ain't as pretty as thai ones... I even commented that they were the same batch that Eu saw 7 yrs ago. Hmmm, I'm just being evil right? Hee~!!! SL, RW and I were screaming out heads off as well as laughing till I had a bad sore throat. Kumar is damn gorgious.~!!! He's great I tell you. After a while, he came on with his very own stand-up comedy. I mean it's Kumar what do you expect his jokes? Ranging from Nicoll Highway to Miss Universe, and not forgetting sex and racist jokes...

We left after the 1st part of the show, and joined RW's friends at Bistons, someone and someone, can't really remember their name, but surprising 1 guy remembered ours. Had a jug of Heniken shared between SL, RW and I. SL tried to keep topping RW's cup and tired to make her drunk.. Haha, guess it's didn't really work tho. Oh, there was this joke about RW and SL going to toilet that's far far away and their friends also walk really far.. And to their horror, the pub had a toilet too...



Left around 2 after sending SL to a cab. Reached home around 230, my sis was still watching the TV. MY GOD! I thought that everyone is sleeping. Anyway, thought my mom is asleep. But as I was bathing, she woke up... ARGH... She asked me where I went. SO i told her I went drinking and bear the nagging consquences. THANK GOD! She was like. Friends go drinking you also must follow... Hmmm, I kinda expected that she's tired and wanted to sleep so she didn't nag until morning...

TO MY AMAZEMENT, when I woke up today, she didn't nag too~!!! Yeah~!!! Maybe she now leaves me to handle my stuff before I enter NS?

Anyway, if you guys wanna go drinking, clubbing or chilling the places near china square is kinda coolz. Not really far from club street but stil ard 10 - 15 mins walk away depending on how long you legs are... Hee~!!!

sleepless night AGAIN???

I think I'm having those sleepless nights again. It's freaking 3.21 in the morning and I should be tucked under my blanket dozing off like there's no tomorrow. But i'm still up in front of my computer blogging my blog away. Guess this has really taken over me. Hmmm, there are so many things happening in this semester.

Of 6 semester in poly, last semester is the more nerve wrecking and brain damaging semester. Not because of the work, in fact workload is simply the simplest of all activities and events. I guess it's more of deciding for my future, convincing my parents to other alternative to my education and trying to get away from HN.

I realise either I have become more matured in my thinking or I haven't really been using my brains. I guess I prefer the 1st option. On the bus just now, the bus driver was complaining that because of cave-in of Nicoll Highway, the bus load has now doubled. One bus now have to take 2 bus load of people. I can really see that he's having a hard time steering the bus at bends and turns. Seriously speaking, I think it's pretty dangerous for him to overload the bus. I mean there are so many accident that could happen because a bus is overloaded.

I'm now playing The Sims, Livin' at Large and House Party. Guess I can't really build my house in Singapore the next best thing is to control simulated people...

gift from P6

today seem to be a normal day like any others except i'm on a holiday... haha... well, seems that a lot of the CSSP committee members are kinda jealous tho... well, i've struggle for 3 yrs, too bad lah.. i'm older than all of you.

hmmm, wanted to meet sok and siew for lunch, but had to put ah boy to sleep coz he's down with a fever. so i played the sims with him and trick him to bed. as i was running late therefore msged sok that i'm not joining them for lunch.

after that, i managed to put ah boy to sleep on the sofa, so msged SL where are we meeting before the meeting. we decided to meet at far east plaza, well, i was like late and was really fucking late... it's the very first time i ask SL out and i'm late... so we met at wisma instead, she was at isetan and she wanted to get a pair of bkn, we shopped around and saw a few really nice design, but SL insisted that it's too ex. so we continute to look around. woo hooo, we saw something really barbie doll siaz... anyway, didn't get any bkn anywhere, but she's getting a pair tml at far east. we settle down at mac to slack after fruitless shopping.

after that we set off to office to meet up with program department of CSSP Challenge, zibin and roger seemed really fasinated by NS tho. i'm generally okie with it... ya, proceed with meeting and ended around 8. left for dinner at banquet with ML and SL. i sort of enquired abt ML how he joined HN, and kinda figure out something's wrong. so i probe further. well,
guess we are all on the same boat...

send ML off to raffles place and took a long stroll with SL to send her off at city hall bus stop. the stroll was nice, kinda cooling, chatted about our mom and how they refused to let us join HN, yet we continued to join. Hmmm, and both of us are like kinda pissed with what's going on.

when home to find out the bike was already at home, my mom refused to let me cycle anywhere other than the ECP. I was like WHAT!. If i could only cycle around ECP, that's like no fun. anyway, i'm going to sneak the bike and cycle to chinatown anyway. long distance cycling hopefully can help me to increase my stamina.

speaking about the gift, i think P6 is really sweet. I sorta know that I will get the bike, at the same time well, really thankful to everyone. hmmm, at the same time, i will also have to fork out money for HT gift which is coming up soon in may.

Actually, it's really nice to know that HT give his girlfriend a higher priority than friends, I mean seriously. If i'm in his position, chances are I will put my partner on a higher priority but beneath my family.

Well, I shouldn't be grumbling so much tho. But so far I haven't really seen HT's gf. Well, i've really thinking about this for a long time... If a girl and you are really good friends, things stayed as friends for a long time. It's kinda weird to go into a relationship with a really good friend.

I mean it's like you know her inside out, maybe even the type of napkin she uses. So would it be really akward to like go to bed together after marriage? I'm not saying that you should get laid with any stranger but a good friend? gf is all together different because ultimately you get to know her because of marriage and of course sex. so the feeling set out in the 1st place is different.

Maybe it's just me?
I'm weird....

one girl rules it all

Below is the conversation between my friends and I and his girlfriend...

«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤
§.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» - HT
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment
says - me

«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ sct;.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
i meet u doesnt mean kelly not free lor
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
tell me truthfully...
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
yah?
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
chances are kelly and I want to meet yo at the same time,
priority goes to who..
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
independant on circumstances,
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
if time allows, both. if not kelly.
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
problem solved.
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
but say if p6 vs kelly......
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
thats tough
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
see... so my sweeping statment still stands
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
i got this strong feeling p6 will win
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
4 P6 members each take 15 percent
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
kelly 20%
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
family 20 %
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
4x 15% = 60% + Kelly 20% + Family 20% = 100%
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
you see ah... i think P6 each take 10 % lah..
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
the remainer goes to your friends
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
oh....
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
hmmm, you see ah... if I ask you out... it means utilising
only 10%
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
kelly ask you out, 20%
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
no
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
so obvious kelly win right?
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
%tage for kelly is too little liao
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
if sok and I ask you out... 20% tie with kelly... so maybe
kelly still win...
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
hahaha
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
oh, kelly 30%?
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
probably 50?
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
now the calculation is even more exciting...
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
lolz
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
she 50%, family 20%, we only 5 % each
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
woah
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
rest spread out to your friends...
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
ignore my other friends lah
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
we take 7.5%
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
4 x 7.5% = 30%, we still lose...
«-\(^_-)/°º¤* :+: *cUtE = ¤ §.ê.£.ï.ñ.å ¤ = kaWaii neh !* :+: *¤º°\(^o^)/-» says:
erm......
[:: http://dumbcow.blogspot.com ::] 51 days to enlistment says:
hai~!!! jump river liao...

egg tart are getting nicer and taste better...

i think i'm gifted..

1st school-less day...

Felt kinda empty now that school is over. Tired baking today sheer out of boredom... Guess really didn't have any luck with baking... I was trying to make portugese egg tart. The creamy filling with crispy crust... It wasn't really what I expected tho. But never mind... Must try harder the next time...

Picture of my beautiful egg tart...

step out of exam hall with chin up high

Hopefully I could pass my semestral exam and really graduate without any hipcups.. Some pictures before I add in some post

the time has arrived

In my previous posting, I kept mentioning about the ending is near. Today marks the last day of studying, it is also the last examination I have to take. Now that I'm studying for the exam, I have kinda realised that I haven't really put in much effort in the last semester even tho I kept thinking and insist that I have to put in 101% of effort. I tried solving a few repeating questions from past year's paper, to my horror, it took me more than 1 hour just to figure out a simple question.

I'm feeling a bit nostalgic here, having to go to school later for my last paper. Things will never be the same again, however, things that are coming my way would definately be more exciting. At least I hope it will.

Seeing my friends fared differently in their arena, I'm kinda proud of them. Well, for me, I am what I am. I tried my best or at least I think I tried my best. How things turn out would be what I sow. Guess, I should make everyone's day a great day later in school.

pure coincidence...

As i was talking about exam stress, i was checking out Straits Times and realised that there was an article on beating exam stress... do check it out...

Kinda interesting tho...

coping with examination stress

examination have never been so stressful! well, since it's the last stretch, therefore i put in all my best hardwork before i decide if i want start all over again for a degree or other courses.

i kinda figure that my way of coping with stress or extreme mood swing is by eating and eating, just yesterday as i was studying for my last paper, every single minute i was like looking for food or at least a bite. maybe that's something to distract me from my routine.

well, now at least i have found something else to do... i was starting to blog and design of my blog, this is really a good way for me to destress tho. yesterday have helped SL to design her public blog. since she's going to china (shanghai) therefore got her something very chee na and search for really chee na music. Check this out!!! My creation.

do give your comments tho~!!!

friends are part of your life side by side with your family

met up with HT this afternoon for lunch, he wanted to meet yesterday for lunch to celebrate my birthday since SC can't make it for my actual day celebration because she's having exams. saw HT in front of POSB, haha, to my surprise, he's holding on to a new phone, S-X430, haha, that's the phone i'm holding. this morning i was still lamenting on the fact that he is holding on to a phone that i can't send MMS to him. tot it's kinda boring. well, later to my surprise that he's holding a MMS phone, he claims to be his mum passing it to him.

he's been ogling over my phone for the pass weeks, so i guess he should be over the moon today. asking me to go down to M1 store to activate GPRS... yeah, will send him something later. when we met up, i got a feeling that he wanted to eat cha guo tia from the corner store, and yup i'm right. but i don't really feel like eating, nonetheless, we can go there and i can eat somethign else too... when we reached the store, wooo hooo, crowded and the price had raised to $3. so he was like never mind, we eat something else. i suggested fast food cause i'm having a craving for that. we settle in at KFC.

while we were talking, somehow or rather it led to girlfriend. he was surprise how come i didn't get a gf in poly and he would get a gf 1st. my reply was get a gf for what? i'm comfortable being alone, getting gf is such a chore... and if there are no right girls, there are NO right girls, you can't force anything. after that he went on about our friend E, he kept telling HT how he had many girls liking him and he liking so many girls. and at the end of the day, he's still single... muahaha... not that i'm been evil, but i think i'm being evil. so what you have a gf/ crush? what does it prove? you are popular? you are a flirt? bullshit... it's all crap.

i'm happy with what I have, a bunch of good friends who don't intend to get gf/ bf so fast or maybe can't get gf/bf so far. either way. even friends with gf/bf, they are still very nice. i mean look at HT, he has a gf, he still makes it a point to keep in touch with me, spend time with me above his gf, although mostly is because gf can't make it.

speaking of which, i have known HT for almost 8 yrs now. time really flies, could still remember we knew each other because we were like force to join choir, i tot it's kinda wicked/ evil/ bad/ terrible for sch to make such arrangement, forcing students to join certain CCA and insisted that they sticked to it for 4 yrs. HT and I were at different class then, although we were different class, we always hung out together after choir sessions at bedok macdonalds, talked crap and sometimes study...

since both of us were intelligent (pun intended) people, we went to the best class in sec 3 and know eunice, this really nice lady, that brought laughter and fun to everyone. eunice joined us at our regular macdonalds session and we really had great fun there.

looking back at many yrs back, thngs have been going really smoothly between HT and I, i meant the worst arguement was like only for a day or 2. and he was really upset when i started using vulgarities in poly and he was in JC. he kinda shouted me for that. so i stopped using in front of him, and guess what, he started to use vulgarities after he enter NS, i was like stupid guy. idiot.

we had been thru thick and thin, good times and bad times, and are still together till today. that's really remarkable. in my next few entries, i'm going to write about all my friends and other stuff... watch out for it... need to study now...

another quiz


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saturday birthday life

today is a special day for me, however, at the same time, it's like any other ordinary day. anyway, woke up early in the morning to go to school for term test. AIA is my very best subject, it's a open book term test so it's double the easiness of everything.

after term test, travel down to raffles place to meet SL for lunch. went up the escalator and this girl was giving out yoshinoya's pamphlet, so SL suggested go to YOSHI for lunch. walked towards the OUB building and settled down there...

oh, did i mention that SL is having problem putting her contacts? Hmmm, maybe she should learn from elaine lim (EL). she wears her contacts everyday. Hmmm, that's something admirable.

followed SL to gramaphone, kinda like the CDs at gramaphone, i mean all the CD shops should have the same CD, why did i specially like those from gramaphone, maybe is the genre of songs they played. met up with xunyu (XY) at raffles place MRt station and walked towards the "chinasquare". on our way there, we met up crystal and gang who are also in the same direction except they were lost on their way.

after walking towards chinasquare, i realise i made a blunder by saying to meet at coffee bean instead of starbuck. i wanted to say starbucks, but realise i typed coffeebean instead. so at the end of the day, we settled down at spineilli instead. (i always tot that spineilli sells great pastas)

we moved the table to fit in all 10 committee members and had our meeting there. good move, the whole place was very quiet, very condusive for meeting. had a great meeting and complete our tasks in 2 hours. got a msg from my sis that aunt is picking my family up at 530 for my birthday dinner.

on my way home, my mom called and asked me to meet them directly at united sq instead. i looked at my watch and realise it's really early. so i walked with SL to city hall and took at bus with her to newton MRT station where changed to mrt to novena.

reach there slightly early so waited for my family to appear, wah laaa, there they are so we went to vienna for buffet dinner. OMG, the food is great, but i have gotten a bit sick and tired of it after the 1st time trying it. the food was still okie... with sharkfin soup (hardly any fin), black pepper crab, cocktail, deserts and many others... yummy~!!!

all in all counting my blessing for the day...
my mom gave me my 1st blessing... a pair of sandals i have been eyeing for a long time
my aunt gave me my 2nd blessing... a ang pow, should keep it a secret.
my sis gave me my 3rd blessing... a buffet treat to vienna

i think as year goes by, i'm lesser and less cute, so blessing i rcvd also getting lesser and lesser... haha...

today, i also bought 6 conetto ice cream for $10.80 from a promoter and got 3 ice cream free... now i have got 9 ice cream in my freezer waiting to be eaten...

insommia day 2

i'm really physically tired, but my mind doesn't really put me to sleep. i guess there must be many things going thru my mind. i think i'm crazy. exams is around the corner, or rather in front of me, yet i'm still busy doing many other stuff besides exams.

Jerry said,"you are reaching a milestone of your life, do it once! do it good!" I must start to study good. I will always remember this.

SL asked me to handle everything while she goes for her meaningful trip. My very 1st reaction was YUP, go, don't let anything hold you back.

I asked myself, if i were to make a move for a trip, to NS or leave the world, are there anything that would hold me back from letting go. So far, there isn't anything that i can't let go maybe except for my family. The rest doesn't really bother about me. Many a time, I would neglect my family because they are like so close to me. Irony isn't it, maybe that's the reason why i don't treat them well. I tend to take them for granted.

Just yesterday, my mom told me, she might not be able to take leave therefore might not send me to tekong on my enlistment date, come on parent visitation day and come for my POP. I was like, disappointed because her only son will be entering NS and she will not be there to physically support him. Yesterday, my uncle suggested to go to Genting for holiday. My mom was like so excited and agreed and even tried to take leave for that. Of course she got the leave.

In my mind, i was like, you wouldn't make it a point to get leave for my enlistment, yet so enthusiatic to get leave for genting. Where are her priorities? This morning, when i think about it. I kinda got over the fact that she can place a trip in front of her son. I mean I could understand the fact why she put the trip in front of her son. I never put her in my life's 1st few priorities, neither should I expect her to put me in her life's 1st few priorities.

I guess, I have strongly understand my principle in life - what goes around comes around. I will make sure she will be my life's 1st few priorities.

can't sleep

tonight is kinda weird, can't really sleep. usually i don't really have any problem sleeping. guess it's the one of the few occasional night i'm having insommia. lately things ain't really the same as usual, i'm stepping on a milestone of my life. i'm ending my poly life and starting NS life soon.

reflecting on my 3 yrs

looking back at my 3 yrs, i kinda figure out that i have not really been performing to my standard. i'm pretty sure i could have done better. my year 1 was fantastic, yr 2 and 3 was so-so. so much so that i'm kinda disappointed with myself. i don't blame anyone but myself of my incompetance. i'm pretty sure something must have happened between yr 1 and 2 that cause such a drastic change. the only drastic change in my life during poly is joining an organisation.

yes, i gained exposure,
yes, i gained experience,
yes, i helped people,
yes, i knew more people

but at the same time

yes, i slacked in my work
yes, i neglected many things in life, this include my family
yes, i spend a lot of time which could be spend some other places with some other people.

i'm still trying to ask myself, is everything i do worth it?

i'm trying to convince myself, yes it's worth it

are things eternal? will things always remain the same?

recently, maybe not that recent tho, i joined a "B". the idealogy and philosophy of the B is very simple. people and process were also very simple, i used simple because i can't think of other "PC" word to replace.

over the years, evolution takes place i guess. the feeling is no longer the same, things have changed, people have changed. ideas no longer match the actions, actions no longer justifies for itselves. process have became more tedious. IC have also become different in terms of style and command.

it makes me wondering if someone sets out with a initial goal in mind will slowly change and evolved over the time period, change because the enviroment says that it cannot remain like that?

A started off with the X idealogy, however, it has change significantly over time becoming to idealogy Y and Z. therefore B came along and wanted to continue with the idea X and hopefully stayed like that. however, somehow or rather things started to change and B is becoming more and more like A. One day, B will definately become A.

This sets me off thinking, what i am today will i still be like that tomorrow? I realised my answer is NO. There will never be anything, especially when a human is in place, that will always remain as it is.

Things change, people change, action change, mindset change, weather change, everything change. Tell you a shocking truth. As a chemistry student, diamond is not eternal as well. Over a really long long period of time, diamond will also change to become carbon.

Tell me what is eternal?

if you have $5...

A friend asked me once, "if you have $5 to spare, would you give to organisations like NKF or give to a road side begger?"

My reply was organisation like NFK is so rich, my $5 doesn't really make a different to the organisations, whereas on the otherhand, this poor begger on the road could have needed the money to buy himself a meal. The begger would need the money more as compared to organisations.

What she said was, "How do you know that this begger really needed the $5? There are so many fake begger out there. And some of them are even richer that you. How you know your $5 will serve the purpose you set when you donate the $5?"

On the other hand, you can confirm that the $5 that you give would really reach out the needy people thru the strict ruling of organisation personel.

My question is that, if you have $5 who would you give?

I have a dollar to spare

Few weeks back, on my way home from work. I was about to cross the road, a man walk up to me and asked for some money for food. My 1st impression was that, he's fit and strong, why didn't he get a job and earn a living for himself instead of asking for food. What i merely did was to say I'm sorry and walked away.

After crossing the road, I realised this man could be really hungry and couldn't find a job that's why he resorted to asking for money. And something struck me quite some time back.

"I needed small change to buy the standard ticket to take the MRT, and I approached a guy to break the change. The guy simply asked why do I need the change for, and upon knowing, he search his wallet and realise he couldn't break my note. He gave me 2 $1 coin and told me use the money to get the ticket."

I was stunned. I mean any normal person wouldn't give another person $2 just like that and what's more I'm able to afford the train ride.

Coming back to the man who ask for money. I reflected if a person could offer $2 for a guy who don't need it. Why can't I offer $2 to another person who may need it. When I turned around and wanted to give him $2, he's gone.

Today, strangely, on my way to collect my pay. I felt quite bad the last time didn't really help a man who needed $2 bucks for a meal. However, maybe it's fate or coincident, when I reach City Hall on my way to pick up my cheque, I saw the same man, HE WAS THERE, HE asked me for spare change for food. Knowing that this man jolly well shouldn't be begging and I shouldn't be giving him, I took out my wallet and gave him a $2 note instead. I didn't really feel anything, not a pinch or joyful. Just felt that if someone can offer me a $2 to take the train, I can offer someone $2 to grab a meal.

saturday life...

CSSP meeting
woke up early in the morning just to travel down to heartware's new office to meet up with LEO from police force and (supposed to be 6) 3 police scholars for CSSP Challenge 2.

now, the whole team seemed more firmed as time to time. Well, yup. GOt a weird vibes from Crystal when she volunteered to become to be co-chair. Maybe it's the way she put it across the idea I guess.. Anyway, I have got 2 beautiful co-chair, Xun Yu and Crystal who would take charge of manpower and programmes respectively.

And of course have got others involved, Serene Lim, Serene Koh, Ming Feng (police scholar), this tall guy whom i can't remember his name from police scholar gang too and Mark Lai. Things are getting better.

afternoon
had lunch with the committee after the long long meeting with RAYMOND around... Haha, raymond is kinda naggy, hmmm, maybe it's perhaps he just want to brief everyone and give a clear idea of what's going to happen to everyone.

we had lunch at hong lim food market. The food wasn't really fantastic, and expensive too, MF and this tall guy bought a simple bowl of prawn noodle for $4, I was like OMG. SO expensive...

after lunch, the gang walked to city hall from chinatown, and serene lim and I continued to walk till bras basah. Serene made a new pair of glasses. She picked a really nice pair of glasses and got herself contact lens. Hmmm, the aunty attended to her must have thought that I'm her boyfriend. HAHA~!! What a joke~!

we continue shopping at PARCO bugis junction and settle down at Macdonalds. both of us are under the same impression that raymond is losing the idea and vision already. I mean after so long, things are no longer the same. I can slowly see the evolution of things. HW is becoming more and more YC. Elities behavior is starting to show, where people tend to give more chance to you know... better people... anyway, that's the way of life. Who am I to judge and decide?

Hon Tiong came and join us in the discussion, hmmm guess HT is really bored cause I can see that he's simply not interested in anything. Hmmm, HT and SL don't really click. The 1st thing when HT met SL, he simply said, no common topic, nothing to talk. Maybe that's it tho. But they spoke the same frequency when they commented on my phone. Hmmm, well... Weird...

When shopping with HT and SL, got present for SULI. It's her 21st birthday. Got her a nice cushion bear with small underwear... CUTE~!

suli's 21st birthday

HT and I arrived on the dot at 630. No one was there except us... Hmmm, Being punctual also like that. Well, people started to come in 4E1 guys, my seniors from damai came and the girls came too... When we were about to leave, Min Er came with her BF, (oh SULI and SUEN have got themselves boyfriend too.) got into a good conversation with Min Er's bf. GUess all the guys topic are all on NS... inclusive myself..

half way thru the party, an idea struck me. On my 21st birthday, I'm going to have divided the plastic plates into 3 colours, blue, red, and green.

RED - for people who are looking for more friends/ maybe relationship
GREEN - people who are attached but interested to know more friends
BLUE- for relative, people who are not interested to join in the fun.

Hmmm something interested... Ended the day with a snore...

mugging for exams

It's the time of the year - it's examination time~!!! Wooohooo~!!! Time to start mugging for my paper...

I need to clear my last project report and tada... I can start to mug for my exams~!!!

Ciaoz, after that I'm free for other stuff already coz I have ended school.

Does your name begin with: J

You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy.
When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop
you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the
good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the
thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating
game.You can carry on great romances in your head. At
heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own
every so often. You will carry on long- distance
relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need
to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured
deep within.

Plan one step at a time

Ended a meeting at raymond's place regarding manpower for CSSP Challenge Camp. Well, on my way home, raymond gave me an advice. "Take a step at a time, you wouldn't know what will happen to you unless you are right in front."

You wouldn't know if the door is open or closed unless you are at the door. Till then you will realise the door might have sensor where it opens automatically for you when it opens. If the door is closed, try to open it. If the door is locked, look for the window. If no window, search for other doors.

Food for tot...

The Special Letter~!!!

Opened the mail box today. And saw a special letter. It's green in colour and it says "Ministry of Defence".

Guess what~!!!
1) I'm going to be enlisted...
2) I'm going to be a recruit...
3) I'm going to be serving the nation...
4) I'm going to be holding on to a green card called 11B.
5) I'm going to be living in a regiemental life.

My enlistment date will officially be on 10th June 2004.

My dear friends, please take note the special day~!!!

something interesting to know

how to make your own bomb?
for knowledge purpose and should not be use for illegal purpose
Fertiliser bomb!

Put several pounds of fertilizer grade ammonium nitrate in a pan. Pour in enough wood alcohol (methanol) to cover the fertilizer. Then stir it until a lot of it has dissolved. Next, let it set for a few minutes to allow the impurities to settle to the bottom along with the undissolved ammonium nitrate.

Another pan is set on some pieces of dry ice for the next step. Dry ice can be found in the business section of the phone book under "Dry Ice." Locker companies will sell it to anyone, cheaply and in small amounts.

The dissolved ammonium nitrate is poured into the cold pan. This is done carefully so as to leave the impurities and undissolved ammonium nitrate behind.

The dry ice causes the purified ammonium nitrate to precipitate out of the solution in crystals. When no more crystals are formed they are removed from the alcohol.

The alcohol is then poured back into the other pan and stirred to dissolve any ammonium nitrate left undissolved. After setting a few minutes the solution is again poured off the dregs and the dregs are thrown away. When the last batch of crystals is removed, the alcohol can be stored and reused.

The dry ice is simply frozen carbon dioxide and its fumes are harmless unless they are enough to replace the air. Don't handle the dry ice with your bare hands [unless you are into pulling your skin off to the bone] as its cold will cause blisters.

In order for pure ammonium nitrate to be detonated by a dynamite cap, it must be very dry. Spread it out under a heat lamp or in the sun. When completely dry, store it in tightly closed plastic bags.

i need to start planning for my future

As the end is drawing near, I'm seriously thinking of alternative what I want to be in life. Few things my friends shared with me really struck me.

1) you take some, you give some (course manager - Mr. Lim Teng Guan)
2) as long as you have enough to survive (zhan hong)
3) considering signing on army for a good prospect (course manager - Mr. Lim Teng Guan)

A few things I decided,
1) I'm going to take up degree in social work in Singapore
2) If decide to go oversea(provide parents allow), I'm all out to get a bank loan even if come back with a big hole in pocket.
3) If decide to go oversea, I'm going to take chemistry related course.

Meanwhile I'm just leaving to "god" to bring me to where ever I am be.

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life's journey

Looking back, I realise I have walked thru almost 20 years of my journey.
Looking front, I realise I have many more years to go.

My poly education is ending soon. I will be moving on to my next phase in life that is NS. It's kinda scary tot, but heck, everyone have to go thru that.

me too!

I stepped on dogshit yesterday

Darn... I took a short cut across the grass patch and wah laaa... i stepped on something soggy... I kinda realise it's dog poo!!! Argh...