part 3: gambling; play the game wisely

genting, as many would have associate besides them park, casino is one of the famous attraction that brings tourist there.

I, myself, of course wouldn't miss this attraction. Minus the fact that I'm younger than 21. I managed to sneak into the casino... Damn it, i'm really sad when I got pass the security without ID check. But that's not the point of the entry here.

Of course, entering the Casino brings new perception for me in gambling. Seeing people playing the games complusively, it's pretty scary.

You could see parents leaving their children outside the lobby of casino, people sitting in the casino, ready to pounch on any machine.

I only settle for jackpot machine. As I was playing, I could see the credits drop, unknowingly you kept pressing the buttons and wah la, you realise you just gambled RM50 away, after a while hoping to win back jackpot or something, you slot another RM50, time after time, before you know it, lotsa money is lost..

Myself, I set aside a certain amount of money for the game. Of course, as I'm playing I didn't really stick to the amount of money that i set aside, instead i took out more to play, in hope to win them back... BUT ALAS, i lost everything... *sob* *sob*

But I'm not really that complusive tho, at least I know when to stop. I dont' suffer from withdrawal sypmtons.

This made me realised that gambling is addictive. I more or less know why people can lost their fortune thru gambling.

At least I know I'm strong enough to discipline myself not to gamble excessively. I could control myself and strong in the mind to stop myself!

part 2: relationships

In my realm of fantasy, I always hope that you are with me, we could share the moment together. Have fun and great time. Things are often not as str8 forward as to contain only you and I. In my previous posting, I mention about someone, and I really hope to spend the time together with the person, but...

It has never cross my mind to be involved in a relationship (ok, maybe a little but not all). It might sound pretty unfair but relationship is often a burden of responsibilities and commitments. I'm not afraid to to shoulder responsibilities neither does commitments puts me off. In many of my friends' relationship, one is often stripped of their own identity when it comes to involvement. And often when you realise that there isn't any breakthrough in relationship, things become stagant, things will make a turn for the worse. It will stay on like that until one says, I think we are not meant for each other. At the end of the day, 2 might not even become friends? Is it really worth it?

I'm not sure if it's my background or my friend's experience.
- 1/2 of my aunts from my father's side are not married and they don't intend to. they lead a pretty good life
- 1 uncle from my mom's side are not married and from my observation he doesn't have the intention to.

Nope, I'm not having a relationship phobia, but I just believe that if it's so difficult create a HAPPY outcome in a relationship without losing your own identity. Must as well don't play the game, and when you play the game, make sure you can afford to lose.

My next opinion might cause me to be struck by lightning and nagged by RH and SH for endless hours and cow comes home. I still think I want to voice it out.

I think that in a relationship, the outcome might not be a marriage. It might just simply be 2 person, cohabiting, sharing the same life. Marriage is just an addition of a piece of paper with legal bindings to protect the woman, give the woman an excuse to extort money from man even if it's the woman's incompetence.

If 2 person is madly in love or something, the piece of paper doesn't really matter. ROM is just a scheme for government to earn money from couples. Imagine you need to pay to get married.

As I was thinking of staying single to fulfill my dreams, moral issues suddenly stuck me. Filial to my parents, continuing the family line.

As I reflect upon them, these are simply traditional chinese values pass down by chinese. Yes, I'm a proud chinese, but I'm not obliged to follow traditional values that are completely baseless.

Worst come to worst, I'll just adopt a child lor.

It doesn't really matter to me all these values, moral issues anymore. Not that I'm immoral or valueless, it's line (traditions) are drawn as str8(passed down thru generations), why can't we give it more curves, and bends (break the rules).

BESIDES THIS, on my way back in the train, I saw this really lovely couple. This couple should be around 60 plus to 70, if my estimation is correct. I think the wife is suffering from a bit of senile or something? This husband was so caring to the wife.

Amist all the broken relationships, there are many other heartwarming relationship out there. I could just imagine how many of my friends would end up liking that someone for life?

OTHER THAN love relationship, we should not neglect other relationship such as friendship, kinship,

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part 1: fulfilling yet thought provoking trip

I didn't really want to go for this trip if it wasn't my parents who persuded me time and again to go, insisting that I should go because this might be my last trip for next 2.5 yrs.

Oh, I thought perhaps ya, I might as well go and enjoy myself, shop till I drop dead, slack till I decomposed...

During genting, even I didn't do much except shop like no one's business, sneak into casino to play the jackpot, eat till I bloat and slacking around. It was fulfilling for my new collection, wardrode and mind.

I think i'm going to break this entry into parts... I insist that even it's late, I want to complete all parts of entry before they get erase from my short term memory, neither do I want to store in my long term memory.

This trip is pretty damaging to my pocket, maybe not mine but my parents, I have spend all in all RM*** to satisfy my desire. As I mentioned, I spent quite a lot on starting my whole new collections of feti... (erm, I meant hobby), ya hobby. I now have a whole drawer of collection. You know I don't really use them, but I think I should start pampering myself even during NS...

Things I bought...
1 belt
3 toy dogs (2 to be given away)
5 t-shirts
6 pairs of socks
10 boxes of my new collection

Things I did...
Eat up to 5 meals a day inclusive of kenny rogers, fast food, dim sum
Watch 1 circus performance (FANTASTICA! - combination of different acts from different countries, pretty boring if you watch all different countries of acrobats, dance before)
Watch 3 movies
Shop till I drop dead
Showers many times a day just to stay fresh
Slacking around and watch the world go by
Sneak into casino to play casino

As I was doing practically nothing constructive, my mind was working like crazy churning thoughts that really make me think. The next few parts will be a continuation to this...

watched 3 movies today: movie review time...

I watched
TROY
THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW
ONE NITE IN MONGKOK

*This contains a highly personal and biased review.
You can choose to read for your own entertainment, or even reflect upon my points*

TROY

Now I realise why SL wrote such a long entry on her blog after watching Troy, now, here's mine.

Some different things 1st.
1stly, I thought it's just another history lesson brought alive.
2ndly, I think the trojan house would look much better...

Well, I really wondered if woman is worth so much trouble? When all fingers are pointed at Helen, I pretty much think that it's man (as in human, and not male) that causes all the problem. I strongly believed that it wasn't really Helen that caused all the war and bloodshed. It was the pride of a person and ambitious of a person that lead to war. And Helen is just a good reason (at that point in time) to cover up for notorious ambition and pride.

Which leads me to think if fame and glory, name and legend so important to a person.
- Archillies wanted a name for himself, so that years after years, people would remember his name? So what if later generation remembers you? What do you benefit from there? You would have already decomposed and your bones would have broken down and become nothing.
- Argamo(something) "king of king" wanted glory for himself, how much is glory worth? can it be eaten? SO what if you can conquer and unified the whole of greek? It's all built upon the thousands and thousands of innocent lives lost.

Love and passion
- Paris, this may sound different, but I thought that the undying look for helen was pretty touching. HOWEVER, he's really a bastard to steal people's wife and fucking coward in one to one combat.
- Hectors, his love towards his wife, his child, his father, his brother, his country is unparallel. I admired him in the movie.

Trojan horse looks fucking ugly, and I'm really surprise that the King of Troy actually bring back into his country. I mean even a dumbass would know to at least check the horse for traps or something before bringing into the house mah... For once, paris did the right thing to suggest to burnt the horse.

One thing I really hate about the king of troy is that he would rather believe in god than to believe in himself and his son. Please god is only a spiritual thing. God provides a sense of emotional baggage deposition to remove your distration of fear. BUT at the end of the day, it's still up to yourself to fight for yourself. I never believe in depending god to get my homework done. I never ask god to do my exams for me. I believe at the end of the day, it's still up to myself to make the different.

This might sound stupid, imagine that Singapore is in the time of war, and NS man are put into the war to fight against our country to defend the nation. How many of the people would fougth bravely to defend our nation? Well, I thought it's pretty coolz to like you know fight for your country in such a time (god, NS has infiltrate my brains before I even stepped into tekong.) At the same time, imagine all the bloodshed are lost during wars, it's not worth it. But at the end of the day, who am I to say if it's worth it.

THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW

Another of those hollywood shows, featuring tons and tons of computer animation, dumb and str8 forward storyline, tons of facts that no one seems to understand.

Actually, it's not that bad a show, I mean I get to watch it for RM10(opps, free coz my aunt treat us.) I thought you know, there are pretty much lessons we could learn from it.

The ignorant of one man (the vice president of United State in the show) could lead to a wipe out of half of it's citizens.

The passion of a father to save the son, reflects very much on kinship. Many people take it for granted inclusive myself to think that parents sacrificing for their kids is a natural thing to do, but I always thought that, we should be grateful to our parents no matter what.

One thing that more or less touched me was that this climatologist's assistants sticked to him even at the price of their life. It's more of loyalty. How many of us have friends that are willing to go that extra mile and stick with you thru thick and thin?

During the expedition to save the son, the team had to walk in the snow and unknowingly they have walked onto a glass-roofed shopping mall. Of course, as many writers will do, create a climate at the point to bring the audience to a tension.

Tada, yes you have it, the glass on the ceiling broke and one of the supply cart fall into the shopping mall, and since the 3 men are stripped together with the supply cart, it pulled 1 man down together with the cart. The other 2 persons dangling dangerously on the glass ceiling.

Minus away details, the guy who was hanging by a rope sacrificed by cutting the rope so that the other 2 teammates will not be dragged down and plunge to the bottom of the shopping mall.

This lead my thinking that, during team work, if you are a burden to the team, how much sacrifice are you willing to give in order to fulfil a task? Are you willing to sacrifice your life for the goal and target?

For myself, I thought, I'm willing to exchange a personal something for something that is equavalent or more than what I am willing to give up.

ONE NITE IN MONGKOK

Fucking stupid show, don't watch!!! Not even worth RM10...

my new collection~!!!

I shall now declare that I have a new fetish already... Haha, maybe not fetish, but a hobby?

Hmmm, don't tell other people ah... I now like to collect this thing that is very personal and I therefore should not tell anyone. You can start guessing but there's not way I'm going tell anyone, unless it's my really really intimate friend. (NOPE, SL, you don't really belong to this catergory yet, neither SK or HT, so don't be too upset abt it.)

I can't belive myself, that I spent like almost RM200 = S$100 on this new collection. And I have got unused ones at home.

A clue for you guys, EL (i think also have her own collection), it comes in different shape and sizes. different colours too... that's all I can reveal...

lonely soul in genting...

hmmm, actually it's not that bad lah... I have chose to you know, not join my cousins in their activities so that I can be alone to do my stuff...

Well, call me anti social or anything you like, but I tot at this point in time. I need my own space to do my stuff, I mean I don't like people keep bugging me... Oh, when you enlisting? Ahh, boy, you going to tekong soon ah? Aiyo, poor thing going NS ah?

I mean what's ur problem, it's only going to NS only mah. It's not like I'm dying or something?

I sorta enjoy my time alone in genting. Well, yesterday, joined my cousins in the indoor theme park, played bowling, go shopping, look around for t-shirts and stuff (ya, you might say why should I look for t-shirt when at the end of the day I'm entering NS)... just buy some nice clothes so that I can wear them on weekends, instead to sticking to event's t-shirt all the time.

Today, I chosed to not join my cousins on the outdoor theme park instead I took some quality time formyself, but at the end of the day, I watched like 2 movies with my relative while my parents are busy in the casino playing jackpot.

Oh ya, yesterday, I managed to sneak into the casino, pretty coolz... Didn't know it was so big... Guiess it was a eye opener. But the irritating thing is that they didn't request to check my ID, which means I looked older than 21 yrs old. ARGH... It's not a good thing...

Tonight is the last night here, guess I need to enjoy myself to the fullest, I'm going to spend my night sitting in front of starbuck sipping coffee and enjoy the world go by.

A Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

finding the right one?

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area.
Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?

Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.

Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???

Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.

Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.

Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.

Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?

* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time

* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back".

It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career or business, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!

love or infatuation...

It was that day I saw you that I felt perhaps it's time I get myself involved in a relationship. Things ain't as simpler as they were.

I could dream of you everyday before I sleep. Think of the moment we had been thru. It's definitely not something that I could brush off that easily. Perhaps it's all in the realm of fantasy.

Quoted from my friend, "as I was searching thru the dictionary to find the right word to express myself, I couldn't find any. it's not because I am lousy, but it's there isn't the right word. you are simply indescribable."

It's you that I felt different, you have changed my views to a relationship.

At the end of the day, I simply wonder is this considered love or infatuation... I still stand by my view of staying single...

It's SHOW TIME...

Well, finally the day is here... Today call time was early. So I took a cab down to the lounge where the production is stage. When I reach, BH, everyone was not that... And the 1st rehearsal starts at 2p.m.

Wendy was practically screaming her heads off at any of the mistake made... OK, I admit I made a few blunders too... But nothing great... I managed to pull them thru through some lousy acting. Need to improve on my emotions rather than techniques...

After rehearsal was break... 5.30 food was served... And yummy, after that was make up...

Check out my make up... From a funky me to a old and boring abbot...






A pretty perverted one too?




More pics...

Actor's retreat...



The production pulled off well and everyone had a great time... Wendy almost cried towards the end of the production...

Group photos





At the end of the day, help to clean up the whole place although I could have left...

backdated 25th May 2004

Never hated my liking more...

It;s freaking irritating that I have to go back to school to do something I USED TO like. You know, now that I graduated, I would give a shit about what's going on in school.

I mean I've more or less gotten my letter already why should I be so bother about what's going on with school, what's more "dramatec"

Well, I guess, it's giving a favour to a friend, "WENDY". She request that I join in the production for Sing to the Dawn. ARGH~!!! Ok, not that's I've gotten a lousy role, instead I thought that the role was quite already, except that I had hugh problems trying to get in role. I mean it's a ABBOT... Someone higher than a monk. It's not as easy it seems.

Drama actor act with certain techniques, however, I can't apply almost all the techniques that I had learnt. I can't draw from my previous experience, watching TV or other roles is the next best thing I could apply to my acting.

It was the rehearsal, my 1st run was terrible, I have forgotten all my lines, perhaps I have never even bother to memorised my lines. U know the kind attitude I give for doing something that I don't really like. After that I make it a point to give in my best... I started to memorise the lines and apply a bit more techniques...

Guess the 2nd run was much more better. After second run, it's dinner time... Dinner was pizza, but we had to paid like $3 for a slice of pizza. Although dinner could be claimed, that would be like 1 month later... Could you imagine... I would be in tekong by then, I wouldn't come back to school just to collect 3 bucks...

My fucking god,m why can't someone pay for everyone and the person could claim back everything...

Anyway, I'm just being unhappy here...

And did I mention I got a freaking ugly robe...

I'll tell you more about it...

Photos to feast your eyes...










Full photos are available at http://photos.yahoo.com/wongjianming

backdated for 24th May 2004

handing over stuff...

Well, things have to come to an end... *sob* *sob*... you know when you like to do something, and at the end of the day, where something comes along and deprive you of the chance to either complete the something or take away your joy from you.

it's a terrible feeling, but this time I guess it's something different. I seemed to be enjoying that fact that you know a hugh responsibiliy is taken away from me before I slipped deeper and deeper into the hole.

Well, monday is officially the last day of my service to heartware or at least I think I've cleared most of my things in HW.

I went to the office in the morning just to arrange the stuff, copy the files into the computer and clear most of the stuff... After that I went to meet JRY.

Half way thru meeting JRY, I went back to HW office to pass the job to CTL and SK. Sort of like "jiao dai hou shi", tell CTL and SK where things are, where you can get things.

After that... Pick up JRY where I left and when to CP to get some clothes... JRY's friend told JRY that at CP have got some really nice clothes... Hmmm, we went down to the shop and yup, over there have got really good stuff...

JRY must have had a fair share fun trying clothes and UDs... it's pretty coolz, I myself tried on some UDs as well... Coolz....

Send off JRY and went home...

Strucked a deal with JRY that we are picking up more clothes after my confinement...

about myself...

now that my friends have done it. i think i shall do the same too... hee

Summary Jian Ming Wong,

your responses indicate that you are an intensely persuasive and determined person. You delegate details and obtain technical support whenever it is possible. Your inclination is to deal with a project's key elements rather than its specifics. Too much definite structure and regulation affects your level of comfort. Since you are a very likeable person who takes time to listen to people, it is probable that you have many acquaintances and friends.


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Communication Style

Jian Ming Wong, you have strong social skills and are excellent at quickly establishing rapport. You enjoy talking to people and do so with enthusiasm and spontaneity. Your style of fast, lively expression is both engaging and effective. You are a fluent speaker who expresses thoughts quickly, optimistically, and persuasively.
Also, Jian Ming Wong, you respond to people with flexibility and open-mindedness. You relay a tone that is uninhibited, creative, and, at times, quite independent.

You enjoy talking and can put people at ease. You use a fun, indirect style of communication. You are people-oriented and can easily relate with another person's point of view.

Jian Ming Wong, you are a natural team player. You readily delegate authority, and you embrace training. You do not care to be involved with too many technical details. You let others set game plans, priorities and time frames.

You function well when you are allowed a lot of people-interaction. You would rather talk about details than write them down. You enjoy being the focus of attention.



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Leadership Style

Leadership Style: Persuasive
You perform your leadership role by using your excellent ability to interpret people's actions and dialogue, and then by persuading them to do things your way. You like a leadership role, function in a manner suitable to your environment, and support teamwork. You develop your people with enthusiasm. You delegate details freely and may be disinclined to delegate authority. You actively promote change and look for new ways of reaching goals.


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Conscientiousness

Your work performance is at its best when you are performing tasks that you enjoy. Nevertheless you are probably able to maintain an adequate degree of effort when faced with essential tasks. Because you prefer to maintain a balance between work and relaxation, you may not be as concerned about extremely high levels of achievement. You may apply positive motivation toward goal-oriented work activities, but maintaining focus on more routine tasks may be a challenge for you.


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Motivational Needs

Jian Ming Wong, you tend to be motivated by a great deal of interaction with people, and by identifying with a prestigious organization with a good public image. You desire opportunities to make more money for yourself, or to improve your status within the organization. You are motivated by praise, public recognition, and by acceptance. You are most productive when working as a team player, and when you are liked by others.

You tend to be demotivated if your territory or opportunity is reduced in size, or if you are not allowed a significant amount of people-interaction or teamwork. Insufficient recognition from management and/or peers can also affect your motivation. You can be demotivated by a perception of not being personally liked, and by not being invited to meetings with peers.
Primary Motivators
• A lot of interaction with people.
• Meeting new people and making friends.
• Opportunities to make more money and improve status.
• Being a team player within the organization.
• Praise and public recognition.
• Identifying with an organization that has prestige and a good public image.
• Awareness of what is going on in the organization.
• Acceptance and being liked by others.

Primary Demotivators
• You perceive you are not liked.
• You are not invited into meetings with your peers.
• Your territory, (opportunity) is reduced in size.
• You feel you are not part of the team.
• You do not have enough people contact.



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Emotional Intelligence

Jian Ming Wong, your responses indicate that your Emotional Intelligence is well developed. You strive continually for self-improvement, and you prefer that your work be aligned with your personal values. You tend to feel at ease in almost any social situation. You form carefully considered judgments about people or situations.

backdated for sunday 23rd May

Happy Birthday HT

It's hontiong's birthday ehz, that guy is finally 20... well, not exactly on the day itself but a day in advance.

When out with HT in the afternoon 1st to meet up for lunch, after that Caren came along and followed by HT's girlfriend. *I shall not comment on my gd friend's gf.* SK and SC came along and we went shopping for HT's birthday gift.

Can you imagine, in our P6's birthday, everyone will chip in $25 - 30 bucks to pay for each other's gift. So at the end of the day, we are paying for our own gift in installments... I think that's pretty coolz...

We went from Bugis to City Hall to Parkway parade and settle at sports connection at parkway parade. HT hanged out in the shop for around 30 mins or maybe more just to search for the pouch he likes.

Left for Fish & Co. too bad Caren's having a bad sore throat she couldn't take anything fried. Caren had pasta, SC had sambal fish, Sk had fish and chi, C had sword fish collar and HT and I had seafood platter for 2. together with a complete meal.

The story starts where bitches in the world united. Well, I think it's becoz of myself lah... The waitress is in a very bubbly mood, she said, "give me a min." so I replied (jokingly of course), "your time starts now."

After a while, she came out and ask," I'm sorry, the inside is full. DO you mind if I arrange for the outside."

*long akward pause cos no smoker." and i replied, "YES. WE MIND."

She said, "you have to wait then, it's about 20 mins" (becomeing slightly rude)

I replied, "WE DON'T MIND WAITING. We have lotsa time to spare"

*she gave a dirty look*

*i gave the ya ya look*

"So can I have ur name for the waiting list?'

"Sure, Jian Ming, spelt as J-I-A-N-M-I-N-G"

"Ok, you have to wait her for your turn. You have to be present in the queue."

I replied, "OK!" turned and wait...

That's starting..

After I called for the bill, it's her again... WHY??? WHY??? WHY???

She smiled (fake) and turned (gave a disgusted look) which wasn't discret. And key for the bill.

I smiled(faker than fake) at her, and turn to my friends with other waitress standing behind and gave a "ARGH!!! DISGUSTED + PISSED + IRRIATED look" if you want to see my expression. Do ask me to show you...

She came with the bill, and faker than my fake smile, here's ur bill. Obviously ignoring my presense. And gave the bill to HT (who's the nice one). I fake a faker than her fake smile(which is obvious I faked that) and said, "THIS WAY."

She passed the bill to me. I looked $120.50. I KNEW I MUST GIVE HER THE EXACT CHANGE!!! I paid with my 50 bucks, grabbed, SC 20 bucks and Caren's 50 bucks and slowly took out a 50 cent and drop it into the bill folder.

Faked another smile and say, "nah, here you go." Turned in the direction her back is facing me and give a "tiger eating up a human" arg rrrowwww... Action with my "claws" (hands). Obviously it tickled all the other waitress in the resturant...

We left after that... MY god... I didn't know I was so bitchy that night

backdated 22th May 2004

Last monotonous saturday.

If you have been following my blog really closely, my previous saturdays had been spend with morning dedicated for CSSP, afternoon hanging out with friends, and evening more hanging out or home for dinner...

This saturday was no different from the rest... Morning meet up with timothy and swing down to the office to grab breakfast. Took some pics during breakfast...




After that waited for Sharifah to open the office and showed timothy the ropes. Left the office around 12 plus after gotten a msg from barry.


Walked around china square area and settle down at this pang heng shop for bak chor mee... Delicious... During lunch, I told timothy about what I felt about HW. And the long discussion lasted until after lunch as we walked towards City Hall to meet Barry.

Met up with Barry and he's in a super duper BITCHY mood that day... My god... He was bitching about Tim and his $2600 camera. It's freakin' hilarious...

After that went to my cousin's wedding dinner, Hahaha, more funny stuff happened. Since it's like wedding, so I thought of wearing maroon instead of grey. My sister also wore her maroon dress...

TO MY HORROR~!!! The waitress were wearing MAROON~!!! ARGH... I told myself next time should there be any wedding dinner, I'm going to the resturant to check out the uniform before choosing my shirt for the night...

The 1st dish serving ceremony was terrible, could see the manager making a fool of himself trying to coordinate the waitress... Corny...

Came home around 11 and slept immediately...

source of joy = source of pain

As my enlistment date is pretty much approaching, I begin to start thinking that what I'm doing now will pretty much lead to a sense of bad feelings when I enter NS.

I mean, currently I'm planning and organising a camp. It's for a good cause, and I enjoyed the process. But as times goes by, I realise I'm sinking deeper and deeper into the process that I will seriously fall into great shit when these stuff are taken away from me...

I think before I sink to the bottom of the pit. I need help myself up to the solid land.

My NEW specs...

Check out my new specs... It's coolz... Silver... (I tot it was like brown when I was trying them on)


I'm being narcissistic here... I can start napping my pictures and post them online..

Well, I need to take a before and after photo of myself...

Before NS and After NS... to compare the head and body... Hee

teaching VS action

beyond reproach

meaning: So good as to preclude any possibility of criticism.
in simpler terms, make sure everything that you do does not bring anything sort of bad mouthing and everything...

assumption

meaning: Something taken for granted or accepted as true without proof; a supposition
in simpler terms, don't think what you see is what you get...

It's amazing how someone could actually preach and not act to the preach. Was wondering how the phase, "DO AS YOU PREACH" came about. IRONICALLY, the one who taught me these 2 lessons are seriously guilty of the offence.

It doesn't really take a brilliant scientist or philosopher to realise what's going on. Neither do you need a person with the IQ of Einstein to realise the truth.

Was wondering talking behind's one back a gentleman behaviour? Nope, I'm not saying it's about talking behind someone's back. But it's more of carrying out investigation and not asking the person directly. I could remember the lesson, to check with me directly instead of asking around for answer. It's RUDE.

It' really puzzling how you want people to applied the lesson to yourself and yet you are not following the rules...

Well, I'm not saying I really know what happened behind my back. But I'm pretty sure that whoever tells me what exactly is going on should be true because I do have experiences of similarity.

I can choose to believe or not. At the end of the day, it's not about believing or not but it's more of how things are done.

At least when I assume, I do a logical assumption. I calculate all the possible misassumption and derive a most suitable reason for every action.

catching up with friends

It's always nice to catch up with friends... I mean after projects, you make new friends, after a while it just simply become aquaintances and slowly you lose your contacts...

So I guess, as I'm about to enter NS, it's really nice to catch up with friends for a drink, a meal or maybe just a phone call... All these are really simple gesture that keeps a contact going... Speaking of which I think I need to draft out a list of friends that I should start to call..

Hmmm, well, just now as mun keat is doing some name tags, he needed a surname of a friend, so I tot it would be really nice to give my friend a call and rekindle some frienship...

Meanwhile I wish all my friends to live long and prosper...

Writer's Block!!!

I'm having a writer's block here. Ever since I got back to a normal life, my entries for blogs are getting lesser and less frequent.

Maybe I'm using less of my brain... AND FYI, I do have a brain OK~!!!

c'mon girl

just becoz you wear skirts(opps, I forgot, you don't wear skirts except school shirt) that doesn't give you the privillage to discount the fact that guys who gone thru NS are much strong emotionally than girls who does nothing but go Uni and pick up guys (nope, not refering to you who's reading)

woman, at least give the guys the sense of encouragement rather then snubbing at the fact that IF you were in a guy's shoes going thru NS is no problem for you.

Well, we shall see if you statement is true... but of course, woman... judging from the bloody pathetic response of whether girls should go NS? i tot it's pretty obvious, girls are the weaker gender?

-- ok, woman (U know who i'm refering to) you can stop reading from here onwards --

My god, look at the woman's charter? What is it trying to prove? Woman needs that external regulation to be on a equal standing as compared to MAN... WOMAN! Ha, speaking of equality.

I'm not being MCP here, in fact I'm NAG. I strongly believe that woman should have equal rights as man. But this feminism thing is being over played over here.

My stand is that woman can never be of a equal standing with man unless you can be in treated equally in the eyes of law, deserve no special previllage when it comes to anyting.

YES, I do respect woman for the fact that they are the ones givng birth, producting off springs. Look, it takes 2 hands to clap. No sperm no babies. What are you trying to prove... Cloning? Gene? Well, so now you are going to argue that now with genetic technology, woman can product off spring with a sperm. Congratulations... So what? Woman can live without a man? That's COW DUNG... Face the fact, it's against nature, it's a artificial human creation. Since when on earth is there a so called perfect artificial human creation? Look what happened to dolly. She's dead... She developed arthritis in her left hind leg, hip, and knee. HA... Look at artificial creation...

WOMAN~!!!

god isn't about everything

I jolly well know that I'll be stoned by my friends and struck by lightning if I were to ever post this article up on the blog. BUT HACK this is my blog, i reserve the rights to put my thoughts up here...

I'm sort of sick and tired of people kept saying things like, god, please help me, please grant me strength and heal me sort of things. Yes, it's good to have a religion, but at the end of the day, I believe that no matter what you should help yourself.

There's no such thing as free lunch and magic in the world. Things don't happen just because you pray real hard and do nothing. I believe that other than praying real hard, you need to put in significant actions to account for your prayers.

God is only a spiritual thing. SPIRITUAL... meaning it's not real, it's not physical.

Wake up!!! Unless you help yourself, no one (NOT EVEN GOD) will help you...

my sweet mommy

As I in the toilet shitting today, I chatted with my mom. She was hanging the clothes out to dry, and the toilet was pretty near the window. (WHO SAYS GUYS CAN'T MULTI TASK???)

She was like telling me that when I enter NS, she will not go overseas or go out. Instead she will stay at home every weekend to prepare at least one meal and also brew herbal tea for me...

I was like wow, so sweet. Hmmm, guess mom are all so sweet.

my evil sis

During dinner, I sorta ask my mom to bring me food during parent's visitation day. My sister maybe she's been jealous. She commented why should they bring food for me? My god, like that also like to get jealous siaz..

WOMAN~!!!

freaking 3:33 in the morning

It's freaking 3:33 in the morning, thanks to the potent drug of TEH-C kosong... And of course 3 episodes of CSI didn't help put me to sleep either. I'm still right here in front of my computer updating my blog.

Well, my arms is aching like hell. Perhaps I didn't really do enough stretches before I start any exercises. Must remember to enough warm up before exercise... Intend to hit for the gym later in the day, but I guess i'll too aching to go... Might go for a swim instead.

As i'm going thru my MSN list. Wow only Dion replied... Guess, most of the guys are living on a borrowed time here... Not that we are dying but still NS mah... What to do?

I kinda realise that this blog, I'm having a tendancy of talking to myself. Guess, it's just my beloved blog...

aching all over the place

ARGH... i'm aching all over the place now... freaking painful siaz... Yesterday hit for the gym. Did 20 mins of trackmill, damn i realise how slow am I siaz...

Followed by upper body and abs (must get rid of my baby) back to trackmill again and upper body and abs.

It's more of a routine. I forced myself up the chin up machine...

Now my arms are aching. Need to force myself more to gather back my strength

routine saturday

I've pretty much realised that my saturdays are getting very routined. Well, I could still remember my last saturday, which was probably CSSP meeting in the morning, hangout with friends in the afternoon and more catching up in the evening, and will ended up home for dinner, go out from parents to hang out in coffee shop. And down here updating my blog.

Today is no exception except CSSP meeting started around 12 at Serene's Center. Well, I was late, stupid bus, and when i reach the destination, I alighted too late and ended up at HCJC instead.

Meeting was fast and efficient, settled quite a lot of things in the MacDonalds. I realised that most of the CSSP meetings are conducted at Macdonalds. Must get macdonlds to issue us a loyalty card for planning the camp in their branches.

After which, travelled down to Woodlands to meet A. A's a nice guy tho. He reads political science in NUS and is a relief worker now going around the world to do relief disasters. He came back from IRAN recently to relief the earthquake disaster that killed many many people and from the stories I heard from him abt middle east. I tot it's pretty cool to be able to move around the world to help people.

Chatted with him last night till very late about our past. And he shared with him how interesting can political science be like. At the same time, he also told me about course like socialogy, behavior science, etc etc. I realise I've got really strong interest in ARTS more than SCIENCE now. Maybe I'm a arts student after all, 'cept that I haven't really realise my potential in the ARTs arena.

I went blog reading just now, well I do blog hopping, i read from the 1st person on my friend's list to the last person. And sometimes my friend's friend blog.

Well, everytime I come to S's blog, I tot it's pretty depressing. She haven't really get out of her depression yet. I sensed that she has got lotsa excess baggage that she didn't clear. She seemed to be complaining almost anything and everything she could.

My dear friend, snapped out of it lah. Things ain't that bad you know. U girl, I boy. I got NS, U no NS. I should be depressed not U... If you have anything just say out loud, and listen to yourself. It's bad for your mental health.

going on a weight losing spree

I could still remember myself telling me few days as well as few mths ago. But I still didn't really lose anything...

ARGH... I wish to gain many things in life at the same time lose many things in life. WHy can't i lose some weight? ARGH...

Hee, guess, I need to constantly remind myself to exercise more and eat decently... No supper, less carb.

Less excuses not to hit the gyms and workout.

is life abt popularity?

After watching American Idol, I have pretty much realised that life and success? is all about popularity. It's pretty much of a bad social influence. Well, if you are not convinced, let me bring you to some really very practical results.

1) Election...
a) Philipines, the TV star hop on to political mode to run for election. And the people of philipines to a certain extend entrust their country to him just because he's a TV start.
b) Arnold running for california state?
c) Basically all general elections, as long as you have people to support you, you are the winner?

2) Idol
pretty straight forward huh? as long as you are popular, you're IN...

changing my image

poly boy image is over now... it's time to kai bian xin xiang... time to change a new image.... wonder what sort of image should i adapt? hmmm, must be something that is individual to myself.

got myself a new pair of glasses today, partly is becos of NS, but most of all it's becoz i'm sick and tired of my old pair. I have 2 pairs of glasses now, frameless blue with glass-like shiny plastic lens, but I broke the frame so I need to replace the frame. The pair that I'm wearing now is sun-sensor, turns dark upon sunlight and dark blue frame. I thought it's boring... anyway, await for my new glasses, should be something different.

dig thru my wardrobe, found a yellow cap, tot it's pretty coolz... it's so matching against my new shorts, yellow fila shorts i got them from a recent discount.

hmmm, guess my colour scheme for the new season should be yellow, red, and maybe orange on yes, blue is still here to stay...

E31F Chalet... Coolz

Photos 1st, take later



my favourite photo...








It's more of a graduation chalet I would say... Pretty Coolz...

cycling to the destination
Cycled from my place, marine parade all the way to pasir ris Aloha Loyang, it's a pretty good experience I would say. Before that I was still hesitant to cycling from marine parade to pasir ris, coz it's a really long journey. Minus that fact that S'pore is small. I have to cycle pass Bedok, Tampines (pronounces as Tam-pi-nes not Tam-pines)and to Pasir Ris. Well, ZH joined me when I reach bedok, Des joined us when reach border of Bedok and Tamp. QJ joined us towards the end of tampines.

Got a pretty bad sun burnt from the afternoon sun. Well, and I had ugly tan on my body now. My hands are tanned, but that's the part that is expose to sun and the part hidden under the sleeves of my t-shirt is fair. It's kinda ugly. But i sort of like the colour. Hmmm, must go sun tan to even out the ugly tan lines.

reaching the Chalet
The girls were pretty nice, the prepared the food and the guys... Well, got to slack around after the long distance cycling. Hee... so fortunate right? Anyway, we also offered to run errands for the girls.

BBQ
Only Mr Wong and U Tin came, the rest of the lecturers were either on a honeymoon trip or sick. Hmmm, it was Mr. Wong's Birthday the next day, so we celebrated his birthday as well with a Chocolate Cake from Bengawan Solo. Delicious Cake... Hee... Gave Mr Wong, our beloved care person, a poster, a bag and a belt with 2 buckles. We gave those items for a reason, Previous care group gave him a handmade poster, and his bag is this ugly TP bag, so we tot of changing one for him. And the belt... Hee, the girls realise his ugly belt is with him for 3 years and it's time for him to change too.

Kinda sad when Mr Wong is abt to leave, well after all everyone has been together for 3 years.

Mahjong Night
played mahjong all night with Des, ZH and QJ. Again I was on a winning spree, but before that I made sure that we are playing money, and thank god we are.. Hee... Started around 12 and played a full round and stretch to around 3 am. Took a 15 mins break on the bed and QJ wanted to continue, i'm ok with that. The 1st few games was pretty bad, I kept losing, maybe coz i was tired, but i slowly gain my momentum and went back in action after that. Towards the end got a few limits from flowers and same colour. Hee...

Morning surprise
Slept at 7 plus after the game and around 9. I heard E's voice and woke up immediately. Apparently they couldn't sleep becoz of the mahjong game. Hee, they took revenge and woke us up. Hee...

When we are at the kitchen, we got a surprise. There were warm breakfast, roti prata, mee robus and mee hoon. LD's mom got us bee hoon. And our beloved CP, got us roti prata... AWWW... that's so sweet of MR. WONG. OUR BEST CP. It was his birthday and he bought us breakfast early in the morning... AWWWW...

Afternoon activities
Played PS 2 in the afternoon, Jason bought his set here. And ya I was playing Spiderman. I realise how bad my directional skills was. Hee... After playing, we set up the fire and continues BBQing the remaining food from previous night.

Evening Movie
After we are done with the food, we pack up and leave for a movie. "50 1st date". Initially, I tot it was a bimbotic show, but i realise it's a pretty great movie... It's a must watch movie. I was practically laughing thru out the whole show. And of course this scene, erm... E look at me and I looked at E. I was like, "WHAT?" I shall not say which scene, but it has to do with rain.

Bedtime game
Got ourselves some alcoholic drinks. I wonder if every chalet must have alcohol? Hmmm, we play games and tried to finish up all the food. Woo hoo, that's a lot, look at the pictures and you know that's only like 20% of all the food.

Pack up and go home
Woke up around nine and was like, oh no... It's rather late already and so the guys woke up 1st and clear up the mess while the girls continue to sleep till around 9.30. How sweet of the guys right.

Left the place in the rain as we paddle home, kinda tired when I reach him but well, I didn't hit the bed immediately, instead dump my clothes, got a good bath and chatted online with elaine.

And there's this cool thing from Elaine... i'm a NAG~!!! New Age Guy.

Well, that's about it... Sort interesting chalet... Looking forward to the next one... Erm, maybe not coz it's tekong chalet... Erm....

achievement in life? paper? cash? devotion? interest?

As I was surfing thru my friend's blog as well as my friend's friend's blog, I sort of realise that in life. It's pretty straight forward. People are getting scholarships from reputable companies, some entering pretigious universitys... Do the paper chase, climb up the corporate ladder...

It's a cycle, to get scholarship is to get money for your education, you pay off the money by working hard, after you work hard, you get money and your pay off by owning a car, a house, supporting your family. After paying off you work even harder to gain even more things...

It's pretty simple isn't it. You earn money, you lose them, you earn them, you lose them again.

How many times did we lose ourself because we have to care about making lotsa money to make ends meet? Is material comfort really that important?

Today as I was on my way to eat, I saw this gorgeous car speeding in front of me with a young punk inside. I told myself, wow, look at this guy, so young and he owns a beautiful car. I swear to myself i'm going to make lotsa money to get a license and drive a car.

After I got to the other side of the road, I realise I'm just being superficial again. So what if I have a lot of money, so what if I have a car? At the end of the day, I'm just another farking bugger who's in the unhealthy cycle of earning money, spending money...

What about all my goals in life? What about the decision that I made? Are they just a passing thought?

Just had a really constructive conversation with E. She's a strong believer of god and is pretty mature for her age even tho we don't express our maturity to each other. We often bricker and fight over small things..

Anyway, she told me, "its not easy to hold onto seomthign which u beliebe so much in...for a LONG LONG period of times or even at times , even when you are in it, u will have doubts, like i said, IF there is these day to come when u are shaken and maybe u will lose hope in oneday, somehow, and that will be a pt, u have to make decision, if u really WANTS IT SO MUCH, you will work hard for it."

I've more or less gotten over the material comfort thing, and realise there are much more things than just paper chase and climbing higher ladder.

happy mommy's day

today is just like another day, guess it's kinda cool that I can spend time around at home with my mommy.

My mom is a typical mom i guess, nothing really interested and sort predictable. Maybe that's what makes my mom stands out from the rest...

I could still remember once she carried me when i'm young from a clinic to another because i was down with a fever that didn't subside even tho i took a lot of westen medicine. We went to chinese Sinsei and I was feeling terrible, so she carried me around. I didn't know how to appreciate at the point of time, but as I grow up. I learn to appreciate her...

She's a very patience yet impatience lady. She could tolerate my daddy's really bad temper for years and years and the word "divorce" never came to her mind. She controlled the family's financial so carefully that most of the time, we could tide over many occasions on really tight family budget.

My mom save the best for her kids, she insist that if there's anything good. The kids must have them 1st or at least share with the kids.

During my years, I realised that she sacrificed a lot for the family. Personally I felt that I owe her a lot a lot. Although there are times I couldn't stand her, she's my mommy after all.

I promise to bring her to hongkong, korea and states when i start to attain my finanical stability

I love you MOM~!!!

everything is over... NO MORE SCHOOL~!!!

of course, it's 8th May... RESULT DAY~!!! guess didn't really have extreme mood tho... as expected...

but of course i still have something to complain lah... being typical singaporean mah... work so hard got a B, i expected an A for analytical instrumentation siaz... but too bad lah..

rest are all expected...

FYP:B
SIP:P
CSAS3:B
CRE:C
IST:C
FOM:B
AIA:B

i guess B and C rules the world. sad case siaz...

gone!!! my beautiful sleep

stayed up all night to get the poster done for E31F's beloved CP... woooo, thank god for ellen, she stayed up with me to encourage each other to complete the task...

hee, i tot it's pretty cool a appreciation poster...



i promise myself not to stay up late again, it's causing me my precious beauty sleep... and I think i will look crap if i dont' sleep... god... (I"M NOT A BEAUTY QUEEN Ok...)

my classmates

I tot I really don't look good in the picture, but heck... I'm the one in yellow... Donno why recently I like to wear bright coloured clothings..



Woo hoo, monday off to chalet and more pictures for ya...

OH MY GAWD~!!!

Half a million Singaporean men suffer from erectile dysfunction - study

SINGAPORE : Viagra has been a part of Singapore's sex life for five years now, and for at least half a million men it can be the answer to their prayers.
More than half of Singaporean men above 30 have some problems with erectile dysfunction.

Mr Chan Aye, 37, is one of the half a million men with this problem.

After struggling with alternatives for years, he began using Viagra in 1998 and since then has had his third child.

Mr Chan said: "Gradually I understand this is due to my work and some stress and some overwork and then I slowly realise I have to do something about it...I am a happy man now, that's a miracle, not only for me, but millions of men out there."

Still the pills - no matter the brand or the colour - are not magic love potions.

Dr Lim Man Kay of Li Man Kay Urology Associates said: "To take the tablet and expect to do it two to three times, it is probably over expecting...it is probably too much to expect because it depends on their own ability, their physical fitness."

Many more Singaporeans are starting to seek help - from 10 percent of patients two years ago to 25 percent now.

"I'm not embarrassed about it because as a man we need to have lifehood, we need to have family and we need this to carry on our lives."

"If I can sort it out myself from reading cheesy magazine like Maxim, FHM to Her World and figure out why these problems occur and hopefully solve them myself, then good, but if I can't then I will seek help."

And that's probably a good idea because Singaporeans do not seem to have all that much sex.

A study by Pfizer found that only 67 percent of Singaporeans had intercourse over the past year, 6 percent below the global average.

Singapore ranks sixth place, behind countries like China and Taiwan.

According to an independent study of 200 patients, Singaporean men over 50 only have sex 2.8 times a month, that's well below the global average of four times a month. - CNA

Diaoz... Singaporeans are so competitive, even how many times men have sex also have ranking and wants to compete with other country and global average...

MY GAWD

responsibilities VS leisure???

It's like 30 over days more before NS... WHAT am I doing with sch drama, with CSSP Challenge 2 camp? ANd of course organising gift for Mr. Wong, E31F's beloved careperson...

Hmmm, i guess it's more of like fun vs heavy responsibilities...

Well, if you enjoy doing somethng, it all become a sort of become something that is simple and easy at the flick of your finger tip. However, if it becomes a heavy responsibilities that you can't breath... It's very taxing and many a times U will suffer from burnt out...

I guess I need to know where I stand when I take up those projects...

power of TEH-C KOSONG BING

goodness, my favourite drink TEH C BING w/o sugar is the most potent drug to keep me awake right now right here in the middle of the night...

ladies and gentleman, boys and girls, sweeties and darlin's

I would like to officially announce that I'm no longer in a depression mode. Things are a lot better for me. At the same time I found the source of depression and found the source of healing too...

I was pretty bother about certain things in life... It's definitely not about H but it does played a significantly catalytic role to worsen the condition. And the fact that I'm graduating or rather graduated is not helping.

Good news is that I'm more of less confirm to graduate already, just waiting for the official results to be announce on 8th May.

At the same time, I've found my objective in life. And hopefully I'm going to stick to my decision.

Meanwhile I wish you WORLD PEACE~!!!

it's not helping if you don't define the question

my friend ask me, "what is a cat?"

I replied, "it's not a dog."

He told me, "you are not asnwering to the question."

I said, "It's not helping if you are not defining the question for me to answer."

Many a times, we want an answer from someone, but we do not really define the question for them to answer to the question. And you balme them for not being able to answer your question.

It's kinda fustrating to hear from a person who ask you a question and tell you that you are not answering to the question. For myself, I would kept asking the person what's the answer that you wish to hear and I can tell you if the answer that you want to hear and my answer is the same.

I prefer to ask the person the answer of what I want to hear...
E.g.
1) Are you attached to so and so? INSTEAD OF are you attached? OR what do you think of relationship?
2) Did you get A for X subject? INSTEAD OF what did you get for A subject?

I think it's always faster and less misunderstanding to ask the question this way.

trading off something for achievement in life

after what my friend told me about discovering new ocean and losing sight of shore, i've more or less decided what I really want in life...

I WANT TO BE A SOCIAL WORKER... AND I'LL WORK HARD TOWARDS IT...

SO that would really mean I have to give up chemistry... give up many things....

BUT at the end of the day, I think it's worth it... I'm pretty sure it's worth it...

outing with classmates

Went out with my E31F classmates today... They have been with me thru the 3 years of my polytechnic education.

Ellen - aiyo, this girl ah... donno girl or erm... girl? she always ah, pick on my one leh... we always bricker and hai~!!! even the rest of the girls and of course guys can't stand us... hee~!!! a really nice sweet girl, very strong and religious

Jasmine - wah ha... she's like the tallest girl in my class ehz... always so early to come school, and always take cab home. Hee~!!! cheerful lady and always not afraid to be at a disadvantage for a friend's convience.

Jason - live in blk 77, where i live in blk 76, we always take bus home together... Hmmm, we hardly take same bus to sch cos different timing go out of house. often we skip different class too...

Liang Dan - Miss Sotong universe... Erm, haha.. she's going to kill me for this... Sweet girl, and wow! (secret!) Have seen the fierce side of her even tho she's very small, sweet and demure... GUY (ahem! you know who...) watch out ah~!!!

Merlin - my ever hardworking partner in lab and project work. Her register no. is 20. And mine is 19. So lectures always paired up both of us together to do lab. I would do the experiment and she will do the washing... YEAH~!!! GREAT JOB IN LAB~!!!

Qu Jin - magic fellow... down to earth, practical guy... sorta crappy with facts of life... likes magic cards and related stuff, always keep me company when i need to go orchard.

Zhan Hong - always sleeps in class... hai~!!! could be bad temper sometimes... But he's a nice friend to be with... Artistics and independant. Very strong emotionally to handle baggages from family issues...

Of course there are the others like... Sze Tat (ARGH~!!! should catch him when he sleeps in lecture during yr 2, you'll drop dead laughing...), Desmond, Justin (the smart chap), Shairah (smart girl), Sasee (not the drink mind you), Hani, Yi Qun (china girl)

There are still of course others from E3AB class, and so on so forth

my god! who says caning is a teacher to student thing?

Check this out... From CNA...

Headmistress canes teacher in Malaysian school

BAGAN DATOH, Perak : An argument between a male teacher and the headmistress of a vernacular primary school in Rungkup ended with the woman assaulting the teacher with a rotan last Friday.

Police said the headmistress, in her 50s, was discussing student discipline with the teacher and had suggested several things for him to do.

"During the discussion, the male teacher voiced objections to the headmistress' proposals. The woman lost her temper and assaulted the teacher with the cane," a police spokesman said.

He said the man suffered bruises on his body and later lodged a police report on the assault.

"However, after discussions between the headmistress, the teacher and the Hilir Perak District Education Officer, the matter was settled amicably," he said. - CNA

Are educators getting more and more violent nowadays? OR was it because of the influence from society that even changes the mentality of educators even before they started teaching?

Imaging the influence that is past down from teachers to students. I think it's atrocious...

English Master? Haha, very funny.


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freaking coincident?

Just a day before, I posted something on a murderer case (read below: "what has singapore became?"). I thought this whole incident is just a freakin' murder case.

But I realise today, now coincident life is all about.

My friend, Jon, he's one of the police man that carried the body of the victim.
(i'll post the picture of my friend on the blog later on)

My aunt's ex-colleague's son. Is the farking muderer...

Just an incident like that turned 2 families' of life upside down. Both families lost their child. Directly and indirectly. Victim is dead, murderer will pay for his action. As I said before, life is fragile. This incident not only took away lifes but it also leaves a terrible emotional scars on people.

YOU CANNOT DISCOVER NEW OCEANS, UNLESS YOU HAVE THE COURAGE TO LOSE SIGHT OF THE SHORE.

How many times have we dared go all out to do something without fearing of the consequences?
And how many times have we pulled back on something because we fear of the outcome?

This involves the stepping out of our comfort zone to explore something beyond what we have tried before. It's not something easy with all the excess baggage we have to handle.

I'm a person that always lingers around the shore, as much as I wish to explore new horizons, the courage of stepping out into the water has never been there. It's just like what I want to do in life. I've pretty much want to take Social Work, but i'm always tied down by the fact of low pay and so on so forth, things like not able to pay off my loans, etc.

Guess with so much going on around and life being fragile, I've really found new courage to go all out to do something I have always wanted to do.

But right now, there's nothing I want to do except to slack around and wait for NS to come before I decide again

Damn Cool Link

Farnie Siaz

Link - Call Daddy (in Chinese)

what has singapore become?

Youth stabbed to death in West Mall sports shop

SINGAPORE : A 17-year-old youth was stabbed to death at West Mall shopping centre in Bukit Batok on Saturday.
Kelvin Yang was working in Sports Link, a shop located on the second floor of West Mall, when an 18-year-old youth rushed into the store and attacked him.

The assailant was arrested at the scene.

Security officers, who rushed to the scene, found Kelvin dead by the side of the payment counter. He had cuts and stab wounds on his face and body.

The assailant made no attempt to escape from the store. He was seen holding a 16-centimetre long kitchen knife in his hand.

After some persuasion, he gave up the knife and was detained by the security officers.

According to three other store assistants who witnessed the attack, Kelvin and the assailant knew each other.

Kelvin's family and girlfriend rushed to the scene after being informed by the Police.

Police have classified the case as murder. Anyone with information can call the Police Hotline at 1800-2550000. - CNA

It's kinda scary to see such news online. I mean it's in Singapore and other country like states or other places. Many a time we heard on the media that Singapore is a very safe county. But just look at this...

We are really in a state of peace and quiet or is it still water runs deep? We might want to think again when we say, Singapore is a safe country.

DAMN IT... FARK... SHIT... ASSHOLE...

ARGH~!!! I can't believe this, being such a careful person, my computer kenna such a stupid donno what... Not a virus, not a spyware. ARGH... There's this irritating pop up that comes out after I close my browser...

I'm so damn pissed~!!!

GAWD DAMN IT...