Beyond Reproach
So good as to preclude any possibility of criticism.

This is a very strong phase... I've been taught to be beyond reproach, meaning don't give people a chance to criticise me of doings that is not true to myself. It's a difficult thing to do, especially you won't know that what your actions will result in other's opinion.

The irony thing is that, how the person who taugh you these things are a guilty personal of his actions. I shall not go into details.

Seriously, I taught that beyond reproach is a very powerful principle that everyone could apply on himself.

CASE STUDY, meeting with a girl, to be beyond reproach, one should always stay in the more crowded area, avoid 2 person in a room, etc. I've never give a damn about such things until I realise, if the girl is nasty, she could use the senario to hold it against you.

Well, I guess, no matter how beyond reproach one can get, there's always a loophole for people to hold against yourself. What's more important is that just be more alert of your surrounding and make use of the senario to your advantage.

- Jian Ming

Brainless Vain Dumb Cow...

Has my intellegience quotient drop? At the same time becoming more meterosexual?

After months in NS, I realised that I'm not really utilising my brains as much as it should be. Everyday merely taking orders and following instructions. Maybe if you ask me some theories on chemicals, I might not even able to tell you any. I guess it's time for me to start the whole thinking routine again.

Hmmm, I'm taking more time, more pain, more pride and more money to groom myself. Well, ususally I'll be just heck care and leave the house. But I realise maybe I should just take care of myself more... LOVE MYSELF MORE!!!

Interesting Relationship

It's always forever so interesting to study human to human relationship. Well, after leaving my parents for 4 months to serve the nation and getting to see them only every weekends.

This block leave week had allowed me to see them in a different light. I forced myself out of bed every morning to go for breakfast with them at the coffeeshop downstairs. After that, accompany both to go NTUC to shop for grocery and ingredient for meal that day.

Mom and Dad's relationship were never considered a perfect one, it was never ever near "perfection". Yet they survived many years together. It really keeps me wondering how they could stick together for many years.

Mom always take dad's nonsense without more than 3 - 5 lines of grumbling. My dad I would say is a MCP. He likes to do things his way and his fiery temper never failed to scare people off. SO it's really admirable to see how mom could put up with his temper for many many years.

I'm totally surprised that in the 20 years, I've never heard of the word "divorce" from them. Is it because they loved each other or what?

Concluding 16 weeks of 1st phase in ARMY life...

Like Sg boys, I've gone thru the so called "gruelling" 16 weeks of basic military training and is officially known as PTE WONG now... Well, this 16 weeks have been rather interesting for myself... Set my thinking about what I should be doing.

The few more memoriable stuff that in BMT is worth mentioning is the

1) route marches,
aching and boring route march, enduring endless walks to nowhere and back. 24km route march is fun, starting is pretty boring because of walk round and round school. But after we started to walk out... Seriously, it's as boring, walk, walk, walk, sing song, sleep as you walk.

Oh did I mention that there are weights on you shoulder too?
Let me calculate...
(SBO items)
1 x webbing = 1.3kg
2 x water bottle(1 ltr each) = 2kg
1 x toggle rope = 0.61kg
Subtotal = 3.9kg

(Field pack items)
1 x field pack = 1.15kg
1 x No. 4 = 1.25kg
Now my favourite part...
Many x Snacks/ Drinks = 1.5kg (approx)
Subtotal = 3.9kg

(Accessaries)
1 x helmet = 2kg
1 x M16S1 = 3.6kg
Subtotal = 5.6kg
Total = 13.4kg

I'm pretty suprise how I could manage to clear the 24click route march. After we are back to bunks, everyone is walking in a really funny manner. Opps... That's for you to find out.

2) People factor
In BMT, you would seriously get to see different people from all walks of life. Some pretty interesting, some irritating and some really hero and mostly zeros.

It's interesting to study the different interactions between people and stuff...

3) Field camp...
All mentioned below.. Check out other postings...

4) SI Test
Check out previous posting as well...

The end of a start...

I'm coming to the end of my 1st phase in NS. Well, looking back at the phase, I have got my ups and downs. I shan't comment much on them as I don't really even understand myself...

But, today, the last book in seems to be the one of the few occasion where it seems rather I'm rather reluctant to book in. NO idea why? Perhaps it's too much immersion in the civilian life that I don't feel like going back to military life.

NOPE, not that I wanna go AWOL. Tekong does have it's attraction for myself, mainly it's because it's an isolated island, where I could seek solemn thru distraction.

Guess, time to prepare and go back to camp. RO for the week.
MONDAY - POP parade rehearsal
TUESDAY- POP parade rehearsal
WEDNESDAY - POP parade rehearsal
THURSDAY - POP parade rehearsal + 24km graduation route march!!!
FRIDAY - INTENSIVE area cleaning + POP parade...
POP LOR~!!!

I WONDER???

Just came back from audition with Music and Drama Company (MDC) yesterday. Was wondering why I got selected to go for their choir audition? Hmmm, anyway, when I reach there, I had already made up my mind to reject the audition in the 1st place. Not that I'm not interested, but I believe my 2 yrs of NS is more than just singing.

When I reached home, I told mom that I had rejected the audition for MDC. Well, the 1st reaction I got from my dad was like, " Why did U reject it? MDC very slack one leh..." I was like, hmmm, should dad be like encouraging this son to like defend for the country and stuff rather than hiding one corner to sing and dance?

After that, my uncle was like, "WHY did U give up? Hmmm, can slack for 2 yrs don't want, wanna chiong sua?"

Well, anyway, I had made up my mind about NS before I enter. To become a combat soldier, not that I'm insaint, but i think it's more fulfilling to be a combat soldier when I'm physically fit than a relax one corner soldier... OF course, if my posting is to driver or clerk, then I've got nothing to say lah...

Meanwhile, I'm going to enjoy my last week of BMT and POP lor!!! Which comes back to a point, POP big fuck ah?

Last week, after the games day, OC addressed the company saying that how time flies and we are on our last week of PTP/BMT. All of us were like rather nostalgic about it. Well, time to enjoy the last week lor...

How things can change overnight?

Things can really change overnight just like that... Hmmm, yesterday I wasn't so confident about the IPPT test because of my 5 chin ups but today it seems to have change just like that... Hmmm, I cleared my IPPT.

At the same time, it's pretty shocking that I'm selected for Music and Dance Company. Hmmm, imagine with all the porn dancing and stuff... My GOD... Well, guess it's just not my cup of tea, but since I'm expcted to turn up for the audition. I just see what I can do...

Ciaoz...

Emotional surge!!!

This week has been exceptionally heavy for myself because I'm reorientating myself about my personal goals and objectives...

After 3 months in NS, I realised that perhaps I have been mould to become a different person. As I was working towards my goals in NS, I sorta figure that some things are not meant to be. In the mist of working towards your goals, I have inevitably become a total different person altogether.

I realised that I've lost myself as I am achieving goals. **I like to lose myself amongst the work, but at the same time, I hate the feeling of not being able to be in control of myself...**

Ironically ironic, I hate what I enjoy...

Life's SUCKS... maybe I shall just be myself...

Ending my BMT lifestyle soon...

I've clear all my major events in BMT... NOw awaiting for my last event. POP!!!!

Yesterday was the end of my SIT TEST, and I must really admit that I'm insane to volunteer to become a medic. (FYI, medic have to carry this heavy load known as stretcher while carrying out his mission.) Guess what, I've survived 4click route march, 6 mission carrying the stretcher whole day... Not that I'm boasting of some sort.

Now my whole body is aching, back hurts, butt and tights are aching.

Anyway, SIT TEST was great.. I mean I really enjoyed the whole experience (but if U ask me... I don't wanna go thru it again)

Those mission are like simple, my god... I see the mission and problem, in my mind, I've already drawn solutions to the mission. The worst thing is that I'm assigned to be IC for 2 most shag missions... Both missions sure kenna casuaities, and I'm like the guy who decides what to do...

Damn damn... shag out...