Tough Days don't LAST, TOUGH man does...

After going thru' 7 weeks of OCS days, it really make me wonder why am I going thru' all the shit. Why am I made to do push-ups, run or rather "fly" from wing to wing?

I felt that I'm leading a rather sicked life... Going thru all the shit and stuff where I turn around and see my friends, they were like all slacking in their NS life... Me? an officer wannabe, going thru the crap OCC and hoping to get commission in the end. And after commission is more crap and stuff...

Tomorrow is section field camp. More navigation and chiong sua life... ARGH~!!! Simply hate this type of life style... CRAP... More section movements, more shagged life...

I simply can't think positive these days... Guess it's not my period of time nowadays.

The APPLE and Orange story...

When you have an apple, you wanted to know how orange taste like. So you search for an orange. In the midst of searching an orange, you forget about the apple.

Finally you got the orange and get a taste of orange. You realise that you like orange more than apple. But there is only one orange left.

There's no more orange so you are back to apple again...

As time goes by...

Recently, I've been blogger lesser and lesser. Seriously, I have no idea what I should put onto my blog.

Life in OCS is getting better, but of course it's still only the beginning. The outfield has yet to come, live firing, fieldcamp, blah blah blah are not even here yet. I wonder how things would be moving as we go into deeper into Service Term and Pro. Term.

Anyway, I've already achieve my target for IPPT. I'm getting silver for 2 IPPT in a row. So i'm really expecting myself to improve to get a GOLD. So that I could have like a badge on my No. 4.

Back to CV life, it isn't much of a change except I'm having a better spending power with cadet's pay. Hmmm, my platoon mates are right. Cadets has got a lot of things except time and freedom. We have got certain form of prestige, money, facilitaties, blah blah blah, except time.

Gave my parents allowance and treated them to dinner. I guess that what I can really do now since I don't exactly have lotsa time with them. Meanwhile, I just want my parents to be happy and stop worrying about me.

After long long time, finally went to chiong again last night. Oh boy, I think I'm getting older... This morning, I'm damn stoned. Actually woke up like 2p.m. without realising. Usually I would wake up in between, but this time. WAALA...

I seriously donno why, but as time goes by. I'm feeling more and more numb to the things around. I don't really bother what's going on. Just simply going thru motions for everything that comes along. It's a sucky feeling. Maybe that's what NS has done to me so far...

"Throw a stone at life, and life will throw a rock back at you.
Throw a smile at life, and life will return with a laughter."

It's been a long time since I have really stayed up in front of my computer and complete this blog. Things have been going pretty ok with me except for the fact that it's pretty rush, often rushing here and there to make sure we meet timings.

Even on weekends, all I wanted to do is just to kong out on my bed and ignore the rest of the world out there... It's a sickening feeling... I must say...

Let my just summarised what happened and some thoughts for the month....

Firstly, I've landed up in ALPHA wing in OCS. One of the most gurang wing in OCS, famous for it's xiongness.... Facial expression will change when they hear "APLHA wing". Hmmm, seriously it's not's as bad as it seems. I mean it could have been worst for the matter of fact. Yes, timing are given. It's not longer measured in hours, but in minutes and even up to seconds. That's probably one of the few things I hated about timing.

Leadership Field Camp (LFC). As many have heard it seems to take the most xiong field camp as compared to other field camps like section field camp and stuff... Well, I've managed to get thru the field camp and survived. I guess the worst of all is "Charlie Mike". For those of you who don't know, it's "Continued Mission". What mission? We had a 4 km FAST MARCH after 3 days of field camp where everyone is all shaged out and dying. I'm pretty glad to say... I MADE IT... But it's only just began.... There's more to come...

Now, as TRI-Service term (TST) ended, friends parts and moved on to other wing, mainly AIR and MIDS to do their service for air force and navy. I hope this also mean to the end of "Regimentation and Discipline" lifestyle for me... Yes, Service Term will be as xiong and regimental, but as compared, I guess things are looking better... Still don't look too much on the bright side coz it's ALPHA WING....

Things are moving as much as I could see, we are now learning weapons, section movements and stuff... It's more of tactical and military contexts, something I would appreciates more as compared to regimentation as discipline.

All in all, during these 5 weeks, I've learn pretty much things. I've become more reserved when it comes to giving suggestions, coz I know eventually if everybody wants to be the Indian Chief, where are the Indian Man?

so far... 5 weeks gone.... 37 more weeks to go... the no. isn't really looking great...

And of course, I've gotten my green beret.... Now my SINGAPURA CREST has got a ugly white backing but it's ok... At least I know I look decent with a beret and a jockey cap.... Hee...

Well, more updates as I move deeper into other trainings and I will then have more to tell...