it's the season of depression

farking shit, i think i'm going thru some sort of depression AGAIN~!!! hmmm, things are running pretty smoothly for me except some "i-don't-get-your-idea-neither-do-you-get-mine" shit.

maybe that's what you called the "end of school" depression or maybe the "pre-NS" depression. things are going alright with me, as in I've got a bunch of going-out friends, I've got a set of parents that are starting to understand me and letting me do what I deem right. BUt at the end of the day, something seemed really wrong. I seriously can't point out what is wrong with me.

It's just a sort of feeling that... ARGH~!!! I'm feeling so wasted... NO school, NO exams, NOTHING to do... At least I can more or less confirm that I'm not going thru "pre-NS" depression.

tmr, my lecturer asked me to go back to help her out. On one hand, I'm like WTF, why ask me. It's project exhibition, my project is not selected for exhibition, and you want me to be back to help you? How do you think I will feel? I'm a project reject and you are getting me to help you? but on the other hand, i don't mind helping out if school activities, damn it... if I can spend so much time on an organisation, i should have spend more time with my school's activities and at least I can PR my lecturers and so on so forth.