achievement in life? paper? cash? devotion? interest?

As I was surfing thru my friend's blog as well as my friend's friend's blog, I sort of realise that in life. It's pretty straight forward. People are getting scholarships from reputable companies, some entering pretigious universitys... Do the paper chase, climb up the corporate ladder...

It's a cycle, to get scholarship is to get money for your education, you pay off the money by working hard, after you work hard, you get money and your pay off by owning a car, a house, supporting your family. After paying off you work even harder to gain even more things...

It's pretty simple isn't it. You earn money, you lose them, you earn them, you lose them again.

How many times did we lose ourself because we have to care about making lotsa money to make ends meet? Is material comfort really that important?

Today as I was on my way to eat, I saw this gorgeous car speeding in front of me with a young punk inside. I told myself, wow, look at this guy, so young and he owns a beautiful car. I swear to myself i'm going to make lotsa money to get a license and drive a car.

After I got to the other side of the road, I realise I'm just being superficial again. So what if I have a lot of money, so what if I have a car? At the end of the day, I'm just another farking bugger who's in the unhealthy cycle of earning money, spending money...

What about all my goals in life? What about the decision that I made? Are they just a passing thought?

Just had a really constructive conversation with E. She's a strong believer of god and is pretty mature for her age even tho we don't express our maturity to each other. We often bricker and fight over small things..

Anyway, she told me, "its not easy to hold onto seomthign which u beliebe so much in...for a LONG LONG period of times or even at times , even when you are in it, u will have doubts, like i said, IF there is these day to come when u are shaken and maybe u will lose hope in oneday, somehow, and that will be a pt, u have to make decision, if u really WANTS IT SO MUCH, you will work hard for it."

I've more or less gotten over the material comfort thing, and realise there are much more things than just paper chase and climbing higher ladder.